missed opportunities

When an opportunity appears in front of my face I tend to miss and let it go
After it went away, there is me sitting under my cover and droplets of diamond running down my cheeks....
Another opportunity came across my face there I let it went away again... there is no way another opportunity going to appear around me again...

I just have to face this myself and know the main face this all my own...

turn over a new leaf!

I realize that my crappy life has not turn over a new leaf but I think I am going to turn over a new leaf. I am going to forget whatever have had happen to me for the pass 3 months and find back the old Chewy because this new Chewy is not going to turn out good for my future and the old Chewy will keep me on track on whatever I need to do...

People keep saying forget and forgive... It is not that easy to when shits happened on yourself. I use to be a happy go lucky person but everything change and I tend to hide my feelings even more and try not to be myself anymore. This is kicking my ass and I'm exhausted from whatever I'm doing now..

Time for another change for a better life and better Chewy!!!

no more miracle

I always believe that there my faith falls within my hands but now I understand that is not the case anymore...
everyone's faith is already set and nothing going to change anything... God has set a trail for each one of us to walk through and we have no choice to pick and choose...
why people take advantage of people when they are hurt, lonely, or feeling guilty... how can human being can be such inhumane. ridiculously retarded and i'm tired