I have not been blogging for a while because I have been having some issue with myself lately.
What is a relationship?
the dictionary said it is a state of connectedness between people.
Am I in a relationship?
This question I have been asking myself for many times. I am with someone but I DO NOT feel the connectedness between the two of us. It has been very frustrating because I don't want to end this relationship, therefore I kept trying to connect. The connection between us just never works. Is this my problem or his? I do not know.
I know he has tons of pressures on him but he doesn't seem care. That really bother me for him just talking about what he wants but not really taking an action. Opportunity is not just going to fell of the sky into our hands. I do not know what I see in him but I hope I am blind forever.
Money has been a big issue for me but he's not helping at all. He's not even paying for anything but his car insurance and gas. I really don't know how long I can take this with him.
He mentioned early in this relationship that he doesn't want to hurt me. unfortunately he has been hurting me for a while bit by bit without seeing the wound.
Should I go back to my life I used to have for 22 years before I met him? I don't know what is the best decision for both of us to be happy and less worries.
Why relationship have to be so difficult and heart breaking?
