I started this blog because someone wanted me to keep in touch with me therefore i start this stupid blog where no one care reading with the same time no one cares about me anyways...
I told the worst thing have happened to me some of my trusted friends but they start to judge me and I felt this is wrong. No one care anyways...
I have not been eating, sleeping or even concentrate on my studies now. I'm afraid I'm going to fail my life and I want to cry but i CAN'T cry... this is very frustrating....
This blog started by letting myself go and express myself. now I'm all open but no one cares. the people who said they are going to care but no... they did not. I thought they care about me as much as I care about them.
will I ever going to be the old me again? will i ever return to normal? will people stop judging me and support me?
I have not been talking to my parents from 2 weeks because I can't lie to them that I'm ok...
I have been a strong a person, I always manage to handle anything by myself but not this time. I need support and advice but no one out there would do that for me because I am Chewy that no one cares.
SInce last weekend, i have enter the end of the world. i don't think I can keep on going like this. this is too extreme for me to go on. trying to forget, the more I can remember.
If i can get through this by myself, this mean i will be stronger then ever or just have change the innocent and naive me. probably the changing part i guess. and move on with what people think i am. that would be easier than changing people's mind towards me.
the stupid me is talking again, always lost within myself. i just want to delete this whole week from my life. i want to live a normal life, i want to eat, sleep, cry like others and even be happy. i am tired of pretending in front of people.
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