爱 or 不爱

原来爱就不过如此
本来还以为这就是爱, 原来只是我白痴
相信了 到后来还是自己辛苦, 伤心.
But i really cannot imagine my life without him. I'll so screwed that I probably won;t be able to stand up by myself.
I thought this will be it but after 133 days, i just realize that this is a lie and probably will never happen to me again in this lifetime.
I was angry but soon I realize that I DO NOT have the right to be angry. because everything is a lie and i just have to accept all this with or without willingness.
这叫自找苦头,自找麻烦