if i did not appear at that time at that place things will not happen....
if I was not there I will not have thing that I should not have and lost it....
if I did not lost it what will come next?
is next is my future?
Why do I do this to me?
Why do I let myself do this?
Why do I let others do this to me?
Why can't I stop it even though I know I should?
Why can't I move on?
Why do I stay on the same ground?
Why do I let myself suffer?
Why can't I face the real me?
Why do I hide from myself????
Loving myself first before loving anyone or being love by someone... I understand this theory but I can't do it anymore. I don't like myself so much that my friend can see that now. I am not the Chewy I am use to be. Not tough and strong anymore. I am just a weak loser now. So weak that I am losing myself to my weaknesses. I don't think I can keep going anymore.
But there is nothing I can do right now... but to let it go and forget about it! not possible but is it almost the end of the year... a new year going to start, hoping everything can be better and going smooth
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Monday, December 21, 2009
fate game
what is happiness?
I know happiness can be easy and simple but I don't know how to blend this thoughts into my mind.
Hanging out with friends, drinking a good cup of coffee, or just being able to walk around can be consider as happiness.... But not enough i guess....
happiness is simple yet so far away... this might the joke of fate for me...
people who like me are not people I would want to be with, and people that I like will never see me! This is a never ending hide and seek... game from the fate..
I know happiness can be easy and simple but I don't know how to blend this thoughts into my mind.
Hanging out with friends, drinking a good cup of coffee, or just being able to walk around can be consider as happiness.... But not enough i guess....
happiness is simple yet so far away... this might the joke of fate for me...
people who like me are not people I would want to be with, and people that I like will never see me! This is a never ending hide and seek... game from the fate..
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Am I losing myself?
This winter break has been too wild compared to other winter break
Wild parties, wild actions, wild thoughts, and wild new friends......
All this wild events happened to me lately is super duper crazy....
not just that, everything in my brain are too crazy and Cody kept telling me to control myself but I think I don't want to or I don't know how.
Controlling myself used to be something I do and hide real good but once I'm at that house with those people, I can't control... I just want to release myself to whoever I'm not use to be. I'm afraid this would end up with bad conclusions.
Wild parties, wild actions, wild thoughts, and wild new friends......
All this wild events happened to me lately is super duper crazy....
not just that, everything in my brain are too crazy and Cody kept telling me to control myself but I think I don't want to or I don't know how.
Controlling myself used to be something I do and hide real good but once I'm at that house with those people, I can't control... I just want to release myself to whoever I'm not use to be. I'm afraid this would end up with bad conclusions.
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
the NEW me 2
lately, I have been hanging out with tons of new friends and mostly guys. I think I'[m trying to revenge on something because things are not the same anymore and I don have anything to lose...
Since that day, everything have change and nothing will make a difference anymore... everything is the same and no difference.
There are guys that I hang out and talk to almost everyday, there are guys that I met almost every weekend and party, there are a group of Saudi Arabian guys were I party with hookah with them.
I kissed a girl last weekend for one of my dare. I dono if this is going to get worst or not but I know this is something I am enjoying a lot right now.
Since that day, everything have change and nothing will make a difference anymore... everything is the same and no difference.
There are guys that I hang out and talk to almost everyday, there are guys that I met almost every weekend and party, there are a group of Saudi Arabian guys were I party with hookah with them.
I kissed a girl last weekend for one of my dare. I dono if this is going to get worst or not but I know this is something I am enjoying a lot right now.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
the NEW me
I have been in USA for 2 years, 3 months and 24 days. i have change so much that I can't even believe this is the new me.
From a normal and conservative Malaysian to the current me.
Nowadays, I drink.. I party... I do Hookah... I did dip.... and some other things that I can never believe I would do and never thought I would have in my mind. I always have thought that I don think I should have and they are horrible thoughts.
This is the new no more nice and innocent Chewy.
From a normal and conservative Malaysian to the current me.
Nowadays, I drink.. I party... I do Hookah... I did dip.... and some other things that I can never believe I would do and never thought I would have in my mind. I always have thought that I don think I should have and they are horrible thoughts.
This is the new no more nice and innocent Chewy.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
finals week
it is my finals week... i am so stress out but I did something amazingly fun last week to distress.
let me tell you the story
I went to my Saudi Arabian's house and with the French guy because he just broke up with his girl therefore he needed all the fun he needs. So we went to a party and tried their double apple hookah at the same time drinking a couple shots of absolute Vodka.. then my French guy friend left with 2 American girls... soon enough I got light headed and stop...
Then I have to go to my second party down the street. After I sober up, I drove to my American friend's house for my 2nd party. hihihiii I'm a partier now
At the American friend's house we played truth or dare. I have played truth or dare before but this game never been this extreme. They we like mixing different things and eat or drink them, eating candle, licking butt frow, etc.... do you want to know what did they dare me to do??
I was dare to do a shotgun (poking a hole on the beer can and drink from the hole and open up the opening), body shot (drinking liquor from one's belly button), let Brandon grab my boob, and I had to kiss Rowdy. What a crazy night. I was there til 6.30 am...
that's how I distress now
let me tell you the story
I went to my Saudi Arabian's house and with the French guy because he just broke up with his girl therefore he needed all the fun he needs. So we went to a party and tried their double apple hookah at the same time drinking a couple shots of absolute Vodka.. then my French guy friend left with 2 American girls... soon enough I got light headed and stop...
Then I have to go to my second party down the street. After I sober up, I drove to my American friend's house for my 2nd party. hihihiii I'm a partier now
At the American friend's house we played truth or dare. I have played truth or dare before but this game never been this extreme. They we like mixing different things and eat or drink them, eating candle, licking butt frow, etc.... do you want to know what did they dare me to do??
I was dare to do a shotgun (poking a hole on the beer can and drink from the hole and open up the opening), body shot (drinking liquor from one's belly button), let Brandon grab my boob, and I had to kiss Rowdy. What a crazy night. I was there til 6.30 am...
that's how I distress now
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
deserve or not deserve?
As I was testing a friend of mine. We were talking about everyone deserve to have someone along their lives. Is that even possible? Since there are 1:3 ratio of female to male. That is a huge difference in quantity.
He kept asking me to be brave and accept him into my life but I rejected him 3 times so far. I felt like I am such a jerk. After what I have been through for the past month is not fun at all and is something I will not forget for the rest of my life. This nightmare may haunt me for the rest of my life therefore I don't think I should accept any guy who are as nice as him, which at the end he would get hurt.
Hurting someone is not a new thing to me but hurting more will not be my goal. Especially hurting someone I really care and care about me. That is just cruel.
We text each other everyday since we met. We can text all day long and talk about pretty much everything. But for the past 2 days our conversation ended with talking about relationship and I am stressing out now because he really wanted to have a relationship with me and I kept running away from him. I wanted to say "Do you want to be my someone?" to make me feel better and giving us a chance. But I can't be so selfish and hurt him.
life is tougher as the days go by.....
He kept asking me to be brave and accept him into my life but I rejected him 3 times so far. I felt like I am such a jerk. After what I have been through for the past month is not fun at all and is something I will not forget for the rest of my life. This nightmare may haunt me for the rest of my life therefore I don't think I should accept any guy who are as nice as him, which at the end he would get hurt.
Hurting someone is not a new thing to me but hurting more will not be my goal. Especially hurting someone I really care and care about me. That is just cruel.
We text each other everyday since we met. We can text all day long and talk about pretty much everything. But for the past 2 days our conversation ended with talking about relationship and I am stressing out now because he really wanted to have a relationship with me and I kept running away from him. I wanted to say "Do you want to be my someone?" to make me feel better and giving us a chance. But I can't be so selfish and hurt him.
life is tougher as the days go by.....
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
it is over
everything is came to an end... even though it went from bad to worst but everything has came to an end... nothing else anyone can do to change this...
the pain i experienced was over but deep down in me i will still remember what happen to me since Nov 6, 2009 until Nov 24, 2009.....
it is all gone and i have nothing in me anymore
the pain i experienced was over but deep down in me i will still remember what happen to me since Nov 6, 2009 until Nov 24, 2009.....
it is all gone and i have nothing in me anymore
Sunday, November 22, 2009
worst thing that can happen
in my life, things have been going from bad to worst....
first I lost something and now I gain something... I have a living parasite in me... how horrible that can be...
things just going to get worst and worst.. I want a normal life back and hva every part of this memories deleted from my freaking life
first I lost something and now I gain something... I have a living parasite in me... how horrible that can be...
things just going to get worst and worst.. I want a normal life back and hva every part of this memories deleted from my freaking life
Thursday, November 19, 2009
no more
I will not tell anyone about what happen anymore... people do not understand and people are just not caring enough..
things that people said were not considerate at the first place... not supportive enough and that is what I need currently....
I'm just going to tel everyone that i'm great and awesome....
i had enough... i want to forget and get supports but people are just blaming me
you people just stop!!!
things that people said were not considerate at the first place... not supportive enough and that is what I need currently....
I'm just going to tel everyone that i'm great and awesome....
i had enough... i want to forget and get supports but people are just blaming me
you people just stop!!!
Sunday, November 15, 2009
the expected vs. unexpected
something I have been desperately wanting for a week is finally arrived but it was not as exciting as I thought I would be...
things have been getting nastier... i'm afraid I might enter into a no u-turn path and I would regret forever of my life, which I already did have several things that I regretted deep down in my heart. But there is nothing that I can do to change anything
but the feeling of being depress and unhappy still exist every now and then...
people i thought I can trust cannot be trust anymore because they start to judge and this is the least drama I would like to get involve in my life.
things have been getting nastier... i'm afraid I might enter into a no u-turn path and I would regret forever of my life, which I already did have several things that I regretted deep down in my heart. But there is nothing that I can do to change anything
but the feeling of being depress and unhappy still exist every now and then...
people i thought I can trust cannot be trust anymore because they start to judge and this is the least drama I would like to get involve in my life.
the dark side
have you ever heard the dark side of a person... how you just lost yourself
i think I'm getting there myself.. my brain knows that I cannot go there but my heart just follows the dark and evil me into the dark side.
I brain is still pulling me back strongly but I might not be able to hold on any longer because I am mentally unstable due to unstable psychology.
i just want to shut myself down because all this horrible memories is driving me nuts.
my heart beat increased every time I thought abut this matter, like I can't breath, which me ending up gasping for fresh air.
looking in the bright side is not easy now because the dark is taking over
i think I'm getting there myself.. my brain knows that I cannot go there but my heart just follows the dark and evil me into the dark side.
I brain is still pulling me back strongly but I might not be able to hold on any longer because I am mentally unstable due to unstable psychology.
i just want to shut myself down because all this horrible memories is driving me nuts.
my heart beat increased every time I thought abut this matter, like I can't breath, which me ending up gasping for fresh air.
looking in the bright side is not easy now because the dark is taking over
Saturday, November 14, 2009
losing something very precious
Now I really understand the feeling of losing something very important and precious.
This has been my most hardcore week for me... I have been trying to forget and let it go, but I realize that it is impossible. Things have been going tragic in my own brain and I'm afraid it is going to get wild.
There is no one out there is listening or even care. I'm desperately need a hug and comfort from someone.
My heart felt empty, pinched, and weird. a feeling that i never felt.
i want to cry but i guess i'm dried up and can even let the tears from my heart to flow.
lately, food just become no taste, sleep have been uneasy, concentration have been lost in the air. I'm so lost in my own mind and soul.
This has been my most hardcore week for me... I have been trying to forget and let it go, but I realize that it is impossible. Things have been going tragic in my own brain and I'm afraid it is going to get wild.
There is no one out there is listening or even care. I'm desperately need a hug and comfort from someone.
My heart felt empty, pinched, and weird. a feeling that i never felt.
i want to cry but i guess i'm dried up and can even let the tears from my heart to flow.
lately, food just become no taste, sleep have been uneasy, concentration have been lost in the air. I'm so lost in my own mind and soul.
Friday, November 13, 2009
The worst of the worst
I started this blog because someone wanted me to keep in touch with me therefore i start this stupid blog where no one care reading with the same time no one cares about me anyways...
I told the worst thing have happened to me some of my trusted friends but they start to judge me and I felt this is wrong. No one care anyways...
I have not been eating, sleeping or even concentrate on my studies now. I'm afraid I'm going to fail my life and I want to cry but i CAN'T cry... this is very frustrating....
This blog started by letting myself go and express myself. now I'm all open but no one cares. the people who said they are going to care but no... they did not. I thought they care about me as much as I care about them.
will I ever going to be the old me again? will i ever return to normal? will people stop judging me and support me?
I have not been talking to my parents from 2 weeks because I can't lie to them that I'm ok...
I have been a strong a person, I always manage to handle anything by myself but not this time. I need support and advice but no one out there would do that for me because I am Chewy that no one cares.
SInce last weekend, i have enter the end of the world. i don't think I can keep on going like this. this is too extreme for me to go on. trying to forget, the more I can remember.
If i can get through this by myself, this mean i will be stronger then ever or just have change the innocent and naive me. probably the changing part i guess. and move on with what people think i am. that would be easier than changing people's mind towards me.
the stupid me is talking again, always lost within myself. i just want to delete this whole week from my life. i want to live a normal life, i want to eat, sleep, cry like others and even be happy. i am tired of pretending in front of people.
I told the worst thing have happened to me some of my trusted friends but they start to judge me and I felt this is wrong. No one care anyways...
I have not been eating, sleeping or even concentrate on my studies now. I'm afraid I'm going to fail my life and I want to cry but i CAN'T cry... this is very frustrating....
This blog started by letting myself go and express myself. now I'm all open but no one cares. the people who said they are going to care but no... they did not. I thought they care about me as much as I care about them.
will I ever going to be the old me again? will i ever return to normal? will people stop judging me and support me?
I have not been talking to my parents from 2 weeks because I can't lie to them that I'm ok...
I have been a strong a person, I always manage to handle anything by myself but not this time. I need support and advice but no one out there would do that for me because I am Chewy that no one cares.
SInce last weekend, i have enter the end of the world. i don't think I can keep on going like this. this is too extreme for me to go on. trying to forget, the more I can remember.
If i can get through this by myself, this mean i will be stronger then ever or just have change the innocent and naive me. probably the changing part i guess. and move on with what people think i am. that would be easier than changing people's mind towards me.
the stupid me is talking again, always lost within myself. i just want to delete this whole week from my life. i want to live a normal life, i want to eat, sleep, cry like others and even be happy. i am tired of pretending in front of people.
Sunday, November 8, 2009
terrible thing i did
drinking 6 shots in 30 minutes is a very bad idea. it does not kick in immediately, but it will soon enough and i passed out. passing out at ....................................................................... can't tell
Friday, October 23, 2009
22th birthday and OSU homecoming
That an amazing fall break that I had. I went to Oklahoma State University (OSU) homecoming. I drove up to about an hour to meet my buddies up in OSU. Fun... fun... fun... the walk around was crowded and there were a lot of different food and float designed. then we went to McDonald for dinner. 
After that, I went to my friends apartment for a rest, then my friend Lin and Ah Shui came to get to Eskimo Joes to meet up with Chiow Peng. Unfortunately, he wasn't there, therefore we went to Stonewall, a pub nearby Eskimo Joe's.
Ah Shui (Walter)
The party at Stonewall
Chiow Peng
Lin and her friends
That's the end of my birthday story and Fall break.
After that, I went to my friends apartment for a rest, then my friend Lin and Ah Shui came to get to Eskimo Joes to meet up with Chiow Peng. Unfortunately, he wasn't there, therefore we went to Stonewall, a pub nearby Eskimo Joe's.
Ah Shui (Walter)
The party at Stonewall
Chiow Peng
Lin and her friendsThere I had a couple drinks and meet luckily be able to meet up with Chiow Peng and his girlfriend. Soon, I met more new friends where they bought me more mix shots, which are very strong. I don;t know how many shots I have had and then can't walk in straight line.
The next day, I went on lunch with Lin and MK at a Japanese restaurant. They serve good food..... hahahahhaaaaa After lunch, we went to the homecoming parade, which is 2 mils long parade. There were a lot of people in at the parade. orange is their color, therefore the fountain is orange in color too...fun times...
Library and orange fountain 
Homecoming Parande
OSU marching band.... they were good~~
Library and orange fountain 
Homecoming Parande
OSU marching band.... they were good~~get back to Edmond, we had a party at the Leng Qin's apartment where they celebrated my birthday for me. they bought me a cake, made Sze Chuan steamboat, and played some games. the best game are truth ot dare where we came up with a lot of bad and evil ideas on how to humiliate people... hua hua hua huaaaaa~~~
Truth or Dare: Me confesting to a guy I just met... hahahaa
The group
On Monday night, when others came back from Nebraska, my babies bought me another ice cream cake to celebrate for me. The cake was incredibly delicious.
Truth or Dare: Me confesting to a guy I just met... hahahaa
The group
More people
That's the end of my birthday story and Fall break.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
nothing
I have lived for 22 years... Now that I realize I have nothing. I don't have the look, the personality, and the friend. The world is so unfair because the not pretty people never get a good treatment from anyone in the world, except your own parents I guess. That is so unfair. I been treating others more that I think I should but people just like to take advantage over that and I'm done. I want to be a mean people in the world and ignore everyone... i don't have anything... I want to be the person I used to be... I'm so lost currently that don;t even know what i should do....
Monday, October 12, 2009
My new mom
My dear dear mommy....
She is heading to Vietnam on the 23rd this month. That is so great.... She going without my daddy or my bro and sis. Aren't that fabulous.... hihihiiii
I felt like I am a mom to my own mother.... She wanted to go have fun at a not so developed country without getting any immunization. I'm so worried that she might get into some bad contagious disease, like Hep B, malaria, swine flu, etc.
I am really worried about my mother... Ever since I start going to college, my mom become more socialize and into a sales business. She is doing great so far in her business and now she earned her trip to Vietnam, but she don;t know the dangerous of the diseases out side.
She better get her shots before leaving though...
She is heading to Vietnam on the 23rd this month. That is so great.... She going without my daddy or my bro and sis. Aren't that fabulous.... hihihiiii
I felt like I am a mom to my own mother.... She wanted to go have fun at a not so developed country without getting any immunization. I'm so worried that she might get into some bad contagious disease, like Hep B, malaria, swine flu, etc.
I am really worried about my mother... Ever since I start going to college, my mom become more socialize and into a sales business. She is doing great so far in her business and now she earned her trip to Vietnam, but she don;t know the dangerous of the diseases out side.
She better get her shots before leaving though...
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
how can this happen?
He died... :'( how can he dies....
He is the cutest, nicest, kind heart hearted, warm hearted....
George O'Malley.... he's died.... *sob sob*
oh by the way, he is TR Knight one of the actor in the Grey's Anatomy....
he is my favorite.... and he will always be
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
pulling away
I have decided o not go out with him alone because I'm very clear that I don't like him that way. I don't want to hurt anyone and he is too cute to be true. I'm totally pulling myself away from this tragic and b.s issue.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
UCO homecoming + Australian guy
I was our homecoming last week. It was hell a week for me... not just all the test and assignments, all the events going in a week really wear me off. But this is the biggest event of the year and it is the best too.
Well, we had a parade on Saturday morning. Guess what! I was in the parade~~ walking with others and flags... We gather at 9am before the parade and had breakfast. We were actually having a lot of fun just hanging out in the International Office. Then we head out to the parking lot, where the parade starts. In this parade, I met a couple new friends. One of them are from Australian, cute and nice, but young. We talked throughout the parade, decent talk though.After the parade, we all headed back to the International Office and had more snacks and drinks. Then we made an announcement about the tailgate, which is an event with free food, free drink, free stuffs, and free games. It is also an event before the homecoming football game. So I had a blast at the tailgate with my babies and my new buddies too.
Around 1.50pm, we all entered the Wantland Stadium and get a third row, front row. Then the game started with out incredible marching band, cheer (flipping, jumping, stretchy), and dance, it was hot~~. The game started good with Broncho scored first and soon they caught up and finally we lost 31-23. I'm very sad and ashame by losing the homecoming game.That evening, I went to the Homecoming Hockey game. We have a good team of hockey players. and this time , we won by 7-2.. awesome right??? oh I missed a very important point, I was with the Australian guy all day long.
Towards the end of the hockey game, Australian guy came suddenly asked me out. What a shock!!! He's 2 years younger than me, but he is cute and we were able to have great discussions though. At that point, I kinda rejected his invitation, but I was still thinking about it. hihihihiiiiThen, we went to on of the American's house and party~~~ We drink and talked and had lots of fun. We practically hanging out with the Australian guy all night long too. Then he sent me back home, then I gave him a goodnight hug and he asked that question again, this time I said yes and maybe next weekend. Then he gave me a goodnight kiss on my forehead. awkward.... But I was very excited yet nervous, thus awkward...... a whole bunch of mixed feelings.
Saturday, October 3, 2009
the innocent me~
On Friday, right before my Performance Training Class. I had a discussion with my fellow classmates. There were 4 girls (including myself) and a boy. They were talking about their sex life~~~ wow! I said.
But I stayed and listen and observe. They were basically asking about who should take the initiative in asking to "do it"! Then one of the girls said, at first in her relationship the boy asked for it, then he said you should tell when you need it too. Then the female tried to ask and tell what and when she needs it. Now, she's complaining that, she has been the one asking for it. She said it is not fair.
All of a sudden, my guy classmate asked me, "So Chewy, what do you think? What is your experience?" oh ou... I turned red and said, "I have been single all my life..." and try to avoid any eye contact with anyone. so embarrassing... oh my gosh~~~ Another girl defended for me saying, "Please guys, don't corrupt Chewy's innocent mind." But I can see his face was shock!! ever since that discussion, he looked at me like I'm too innocent.
Then at night, I went out on a dinner with my roommate in a Thai restaurant. We were looking into the menu, all of a sudden, someone came into the store. It was Jonathan, a guy a went out for two dates and never see him again. It was awkward, but eventually we sat on the same table and had dinner together. It was quite a pleasant meal, surprisingly. Then he said me on another date again if I got time, definitely not a date again, but maybe just hanging out as a friend should be ok.
Am I really that innocent and lonely?
But I stayed and listen and observe. They were basically asking about who should take the initiative in asking to "do it"! Then one of the girls said, at first in her relationship the boy asked for it, then he said you should tell when you need it too. Then the female tried to ask and tell what and when she needs it. Now, she's complaining that, she has been the one asking for it. She said it is not fair.
All of a sudden, my guy classmate asked me, "So Chewy, what do you think? What is your experience?" oh ou... I turned red and said, "I have been single all my life..." and try to avoid any eye contact with anyone. so embarrassing... oh my gosh~~~ Another girl defended for me saying, "Please guys, don't corrupt Chewy's innocent mind." But I can see his face was shock!! ever since that discussion, he looked at me like I'm too innocent.
Then at night, I went out on a dinner with my roommate in a Thai restaurant. We were looking into the menu, all of a sudden, someone came into the store. It was Jonathan, a guy a went out for two dates and never see him again. It was awkward, but eventually we sat on the same table and had dinner together. It was quite a pleasant meal, surprisingly. Then he said me on another date again if I got time, definitely not a date again, but maybe just hanging out as a friend should be ok.
Am I really that innocent and lonely?
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Renting a womb? - - Surrogacy - -
wow.... I just realize the the US is legal for surrogacy, which means when women are paid to carry and deliver babies for people who cannot conceive them biologically and the carrier does not have any biological relationship with the baby. Can you believe that. Actually carrying people's baby and do not have any relationship at all. Too crazy....
Ridiculously insane for giving up your body for money. But in some ways, this method help people in different ways I guess. The baby carrier needs the money and the couples that cannot have they child of their own. This is the only benefits of this process.
This is the video I came across on this issue in the US. CRAZY!!!
Ridiculously insane for giving up your body for money. But in some ways, this method help people in different ways I guess. The baby carrier needs the money and the couples that cannot have they child of their own. This is the only benefits of this process.
This is the video I came across on this issue in the US. CRAZY!!!
NOW on PBS - Surrogacy: Wombs for Rent?
Thursday, September 17, 2009
guardian angel
I'm a girl right? I may not act like one but I'm one right?
when a person with found a boyfriend.. there is someone to pick her up from work at nights and the friend's roommate can get the same privilege as well, asking the boyfriend to pick her roommate up from work at nights.
I worked til late at night and no one bother to care for my safety when I'm walking home late at nights. I got scare as well like anyone else. Besides that, I have a guy roommate and I understand that he don't have to care too much, because I'm always so independent by myself and he don't need to take care of me. I need to feel the safe sometimes.
Freaking 2am, walking 10 minutes in the dark, pretending I'm on the phone with someone and be very alert with my surroundings. It is creepy, I mean very creepy.
I need a guardian angel to escort me home abd give me safety. I guess I need to soften down a little bit and not be so strong. Crap... This is me and I can't be soft in any ways. I'm just too strong, deal with it. Just live with all the unsafe and creepy feelings I have.
when a person with found a boyfriend.. there is someone to pick her up from work at nights and the friend's roommate can get the same privilege as well, asking the boyfriend to pick her roommate up from work at nights.
I worked til late at night and no one bother to care for my safety when I'm walking home late at nights. I got scare as well like anyone else. Besides that, I have a guy roommate and I understand that he don't have to care too much, because I'm always so independent by myself and he don't need to take care of me. I need to feel the safe sometimes.
Freaking 2am, walking 10 minutes in the dark, pretending I'm on the phone with someone and be very alert with my surroundings. It is creepy, I mean very creepy.
I need a guardian angel to escort me home abd give me safety. I guess I need to soften down a little bit and not be so strong. Crap... This is me and I can't be soft in any ways. I'm just too strong, deal with it. Just live with all the unsafe and creepy feelings I have.
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Chicken
Gosh.... I chicken out on telling him the truth about my feelings. I called him and told him that I'm just calling to say hi and hang up very quickly after a small talk....
I'm such a coward... I mean I can just walk up to a stranger and talk but why I can't I tell him about my feeling.... Stupid... very stupid
I'm such a coward... I mean I can just walk up to a stranger and talk but why I can't I tell him about my feeling.... Stupid... very stupid
Saturday, September 5, 2009
unhappy friendship
I'm getting mad with some people around here and that makes me very irritated due to hating someone is very tiring but I have to treat her very very nice because it is her b'day today. I have to be nice i guess. I hate acting because I'm lying to others and myself. Do I still want to be her friend because I don't want to have enemies.
Another issue is to tell him that I likes him for a long long time. I have not tell him about this matter because I don;t want to lose him as a friend since I have been his friend for about 2 years. I'm afraid I might lose him as a friend if I tell him about how I feel about him.
Do give me an advice on how to confess to him?
Another issue is to tell him that I likes him for a long long time. I have not tell him about this matter because I don;t want to lose him as a friend since I have been his friend for about 2 years. I'm afraid I might lose him as a friend if I tell him about how I feel about him.
Do give me an advice on how to confess to him?
Saturday, August 29, 2009
sudden lost
Today, out of a sudden, I feel very lost and just want to be lost all the way to the end. So I went to 7-11 and bought 1 dozen of Miller beer and thinking I'll be drinking by myself. But, all of a sudden, my house is fill with people and they are playing UNO in my living room, but I'm here writing on my blog and want to stay away from them. I guess it is because of someone's existing in my apartment that make me don't want to be a part of them. Therefore, I'm hiding in my room and writing to myself.
I really hope after drinking I can get drunk because I never get drunk. I want to get drunk and hoping I'll do something that will never act in my live towards some people and forget all about it the next day. Is that possible. This kind of action sound very irresponsible and reckless.
I'm all lost again......
I really hope after drinking I can get drunk because I never get drunk. I want to get drunk and hoping I'll do something that will never act in my live towards some people and forget all about it the next day. Is that possible. This kind of action sound very irresponsible and reckless.
I'm all lost again......
Monday, August 24, 2009
First week of class
A whole week of class and busy taking care of the new students. Finally, everyone starts to settle down but I'm over exhausted over the week. This is so hilarious that my body felt like I have not taken any rest at all over the pass 3 months at home. Both my shoulders are sore and stiff, muscle soreness on almost every muscles in my body. Already been thinking about holidays and what to do to relax. Why life have to be so stressful.
Stupid Malaysia Government
Discrimination of Non-Malays in Malaysia Plain racists as PAS said . . .
This list is a common knowledge to a lot of Malaysians, especially those non-Malays (Chinese, Ibans, Kadazans, Orang Asli, Tamils, etc.) who have been racially discriminated against.
Figures in this list are merely estimates, so please take it as a guide only. The government of Malaysia has the most correct figures. Is government of Malaysia too ashamed to publish their racist acts by publishing racial statistics?
This list covers a period of about 48 years since independence (1957).
List of racial discriminations (Malaysia):
(1) Of the five major banks, only one is multi-racial, the rest are controlled by Malays.
(2) 99% of Petronas directors are Malays.
(3) 3% of Petronas employees are Chinese.
(4) 99% of 2000 Petronas gasoline stations are owned by Malays.
(5) 100% all contractors working under Petronas projects must be of Bumis status.
(6) 0% of non-Malay staff are legally required in Malay companies. But there must be 30% Malay staffs in Chinese companies.
(7) 5% of all new intake for government police, nurses, army, are non-Malays.
(8) 2% is the present Chinese staff in Royal Malaysian Air Force (RMAF), a drop from 40% in 1960.
(9) 2% is the percentage of non-Malay government servants in Putrajaya, but Malays make up 98%.
(10) 7% is the percentage of Chinese government servants in the entire government (in 2004); a drop from 30% in 1960.
(11) 95% of government contracts are given to Malays.
(12) 100% all business licensees are controlled by Malay government, e..g. Taxi permits, Approved permits, etc.
(13) 80% of the Chinese rice millers in Kedah had to be sold to Malay controlled Bernas in 1980s. Otherwise, life is made difficult for Chinese rice millers.
(14) 100 big companies set up, owned and managed by Chinese Malaysians were taken over by government, and later managed by Malays since 1970s, e.g. UTC, UMBC, MISC, Southern Bank etc..
(15) At least 10 Chinese owned bus companies (throughout Malaysia in the past 40 years) had to be sold to MARA or other Malay transport companies due to rejection by Malay authorities to Chinese applications for bus routes and rejection for their applications for new buses..
(16) Two Chinese taxi drivers were barred from driving in Johor Larkin bus station. There are about 30 taxi drivers and three were Chinese in Oct. 2004. Spoiling taxi club properties was the reason given.
(17) 0 non-Malays are allowed to get shop lots in the new Muar bus station (Nov.. 2004).
(18) 8000 billion ringgit is the total amount the government channeled to Malay pockets through ASB, ASN, MARA, privatization of government agencies, Tabung Haji etc, through NEP over a 34 years period.
(19) 48 Chinese primary schools closed down from 1968 - 2000.
(20) 144 Indian primary schools closed down from 1968 - 2000.
(21) 2637 Malay primary schools built from 1968 - 2000.
(22) 2.5% is government budget for Chinese primary schools. Indian schools got only 1%, Malay schools got 96.5%.
(23) While a Chinese parent with RM1000 salary (monthly) cannot get school textbook loan, a Malay parent with RM2000 salary is eligible.
(24) All 10 public university vice chancellors are Malays.
(25) 5% of the government universities' lecturers are of non-Malay origins. This percentage has been reduced from about 70% in 1965 to only 5% in 2004.
(26) Only 5% has been given to non-Malays for government scholarships in over 40 years.
(27) 0 Chinese or Indians were sent to Japan and Korea under the 'Look East Policy.'
(28) 128 STPM Chinese top students could not get into the course to which they aspired, i.e. Medicine (in 2004).
(29) 10% quotas are in place for non-Bumi students for MARA science schools beginning in 2003, but only 7% are filled. Before that it was 100% Malays.
(30) 50 cases in which Chinese and Indian Malaysians are beaten up in the National Service program in 2003.
(31) 25% of the Malaysian population was Chinese in 2004, a drop from 45% in 1957.
(32) 7% of the Malaysian population is Indian (2004), a drop from 12% in 1957.
(33) 2 million Chinese Malaysians have emigrated in the past 40 years.
(34) 0.5 million Indian Malaysians have emigrated overseas.
(35) 3 millions Indonesians have migrated to Malaysia and become Malaysian citizens with Bumis status.
(36) 600,000 Chinese and Indian Malaysians with red IC were rejected repeatedly when applying for citizenship in the past 40 years. Perhaps 60% of them had already passed away due to old age. This shows racism, based on how easily Indonesians got their citizenships compared with the Chinese and Indians.
(37) 5% - 15% discount for a Malay to buy a house, regardless whether the Malay is rich or poor.
(38) 2% is what new Chinese villages get, compared with 98% - what Malay villages got for rural development budget.
(41) 0 temples/churches were built for each housing estate. But every housing estate got at least one mosque/surau built.
(42) 3000 mosques/surau were built in all housing estates throughout Malaysia since 1970. No temples or churches are required to be built in housing estates.
(43) 1 Catholic church in Shah Alam took 20 years to apply to have a building constructed. But they were told by Malay authority that it must look like a factory and not like a church. As of 2004 the application still have not been approved.
(44) 1 publishing of Bible in Iban language banned (in 2002).
(45) 0 of the government TV stations (RTM1, RTM2, TV3) are directors of non-Malay origin.
(46) 30 government produced TV dramas and films always showed that the bad guys had Chinese faces, and the good guys had Malay faces. You can check it out since 1970s. Recent years, this has become less of a tendency.
(47) 10 times, at least, Malays (especially Umno) had threatened to massacre the Chinese Malaysians using May 13, since 1969.
(48) 20 constituencies won by DAP would not get funds from the government to develop. These Chinese majority constituencies would be the last to be developed.
(49) 100 constituencies (parliaments and states) had been racially re-delineated so Chinese votes were diluted for Chinese candidates. This is one of the main reasons why DAP candidates have consistently lost in elections since the 1970s. (update to 2008 needed)
(50) Only 3 out of 12 human rights items are ratified by the Malaysian government since 1960.
(51) 0 - elimination of all forms of racial discrimination (UN Human Rights) has not been ratified by Malaysian government since 1960s.
(52) 20 reported cases whereby Malay ambulance attendances treated Chinese patients inhumanely, and Malay government hospital staffs purposely delayed attending to Chinese patients in 2003. Unreported cases may be 200.
(54) 20 cases every year whereby Chinese drivers who accidentally knocked down Malays were seriously assaulted or killed by Malays.
(55) 12% is what ASB/ASN got per annum while banks fixed deposits are only about 3.5% per annum.
There are hundreds more examples of racial discrimination in Malaysia to add to this list of 'colossal' racism. It is hoped that the victims of racism will write in to help expose this situation.
The Malaysian government should publish statistics showing how much Malays had benefited from the 'special rights' of Malays and at the same time release the statistics which show how minority races are being discriminated against.
Hence, the responsibility lies in the Malaysia government itself to publish unadulterated statistics of racial discrimination.
If the Malaysia government hides the statistics above, then there must be some evil doings, immoral doings, shameful doings and sinful doings, like the Nazis, going on with the non-Malays of Malaysia.
Civilized nations, unlike the evil Nazis, must publish statistics to show its treatment of its minority races. This is what Malaysia must publish.
We are asking for the publication of the statistics showing how 'implementation of special rights of Malays' had inflicted colossal racial discrimination onto non-Malays.
Human Book
This list is a common knowledge to a lot of Malaysians, especially those non-Malays (Chinese, Ibans, Kadazans, Orang Asli, Tamils, etc.) who have been racially discriminated against.
Figures in this list are merely estimates, so please take it as a guide only. The government of Malaysia has the most correct figures. Is government of Malaysia too ashamed to publish their racist acts by publishing racial statistics?
This list covers a period of about 48 years since independence (1957).
List of racial discriminations (Malaysia):
(1) Of the five major banks, only one is multi-racial, the rest are controlled by Malays.
(2) 99% of Petronas directors are Malays.
(3) 3% of Petronas employees are Chinese.
(4) 99% of 2000 Petronas gasoline stations are owned by Malays.
(5) 100% all contractors working under Petronas projects must be of Bumis status.
(6) 0% of non-Malay staff are legally required in Malay companies. But there must be 30% Malay staffs in Chinese companies.
(7) 5% of all new intake for government police, nurses, army, are non-Malays.
(8) 2% is the present Chinese staff in Royal Malaysian Air Force (RMAF), a drop from 40% in 1960.
(9) 2% is the percentage of non-Malay government servants in Putrajaya, but Malays make up 98%.
(10) 7% is the percentage of Chinese government servants in the entire government (in 2004); a drop from 30% in 1960.
(11) 95% of government contracts are given to Malays.
(12) 100% all business licensees are controlled by Malay government, e..g. Taxi permits, Approved permits, etc.
(13) 80% of the Chinese rice millers in Kedah had to be sold to Malay controlled Bernas in 1980s. Otherwise, life is made difficult for Chinese rice millers.
(14) 100 big companies set up, owned and managed by Chinese Malaysians were taken over by government, and later managed by Malays since 1970s, e.g. UTC, UMBC, MISC, Southern Bank etc..
(15) At least 10 Chinese owned bus companies (throughout Malaysia in the past 40 years) had to be sold to MARA or other Malay transport companies due to rejection by Malay authorities to Chinese applications for bus routes and rejection for their applications for new buses..
(16) Two Chinese taxi drivers were barred from driving in Johor Larkin bus station. There are about 30 taxi drivers and three were Chinese in Oct. 2004. Spoiling taxi club properties was the reason given.
(17) 0 non-Malays are allowed to get shop lots in the new Muar bus station (Nov.. 2004).
(18) 8000 billion ringgit is the total amount the government channeled to Malay pockets through ASB, ASN, MARA, privatization of government agencies, Tabung Haji etc, through NEP over a 34 years period.
(19) 48 Chinese primary schools closed down from 1968 - 2000.
(20) 144 Indian primary schools closed down from 1968 - 2000.
(21) 2637 Malay primary schools built from 1968 - 2000.
(22) 2.5% is government budget for Chinese primary schools. Indian schools got only 1%, Malay schools got 96.5%.
(23) While a Chinese parent with RM1000 salary (monthly) cannot get school textbook loan, a Malay parent with RM2000 salary is eligible.
(24) All 10 public university vice chancellors are Malays.
(25) 5% of the government universities' lecturers are of non-Malay origins. This percentage has been reduced from about 70% in 1965 to only 5% in 2004.
(26) Only 5% has been given to non-Malays for government scholarships in over 40 years.
(27) 0 Chinese or Indians were sent to Japan and Korea under the 'Look East Policy.'
(28) 128 STPM Chinese top students could not get into the course to which they aspired, i.e. Medicine (in 2004).
(29) 10% quotas are in place for non-Bumi students for MARA science schools beginning in 2003, but only 7% are filled. Before that it was 100% Malays.
(30) 50 cases in which Chinese and Indian Malaysians are beaten up in the National Service program in 2003.
(31) 25% of the Malaysian population was Chinese in 2004, a drop from 45% in 1957.
(32) 7% of the Malaysian population is Indian (2004), a drop from 12% in 1957.
(33) 2 million Chinese Malaysians have emigrated in the past 40 years.
(34) 0.5 million Indian Malaysians have emigrated overseas.
(35) 3 millions Indonesians have migrated to Malaysia and become Malaysian citizens with Bumis status.
(36) 600,000 Chinese and Indian Malaysians with red IC were rejected repeatedly when applying for citizenship in the past 40 years. Perhaps 60% of them had already passed away due to old age. This shows racism, based on how easily Indonesians got their citizenships compared with the Chinese and Indians.
(37) 5% - 15% discount for a Malay to buy a house, regardless whether the Malay is rich or poor.
(38) 2% is what new Chinese villages get, compared with 98% - what Malay villages got for rural development budget.
(41) 0 temples/churches were built for each housing estate. But every housing estate got at least one mosque/surau built.
(42) 3000 mosques/surau were built in all housing estates throughout Malaysia since 1970. No temples or churches are required to be built in housing estates.
(43) 1 Catholic church in Shah Alam took 20 years to apply to have a building constructed. But they were told by Malay authority that it must look like a factory and not like a church. As of 2004 the application still have not been approved.
(44) 1 publishing of Bible in Iban language banned (in 2002).
(45) 0 of the government TV stations (RTM1, RTM2, TV3) are directors of non-Malay origin.
(46) 30 government produced TV dramas and films always showed that the bad guys had Chinese faces, and the good guys had Malay faces. You can check it out since 1970s. Recent years, this has become less of a tendency.
(47) 10 times, at least, Malays (especially Umno) had threatened to massacre the Chinese Malaysians using May 13, since 1969.
(48) 20 constituencies won by DAP would not get funds from the government to develop. These Chinese majority constituencies would be the last to be developed.
(49) 100 constituencies (parliaments and states) had been racially re-delineated so Chinese votes were diluted for Chinese candidates. This is one of the main reasons why DAP candidates have consistently lost in elections since the 1970s. (update to 2008 needed)
(50) Only 3 out of 12 human rights items are ratified by the Malaysian government since 1960.
(51) 0 - elimination of all forms of racial discrimination (UN Human Rights) has not been ratified by Malaysian government since 1960s.
(52) 20 reported cases whereby Malay ambulance attendances treated Chinese patients inhumanely, and Malay government hospital staffs purposely delayed attending to Chinese patients in 2003. Unreported cases may be 200.
(54) 20 cases every year whereby Chinese drivers who accidentally knocked down Malays were seriously assaulted or killed by Malays.
(55) 12% is what ASB/ASN got per annum while banks fixed deposits are only about 3.5% per annum.
There are hundreds more examples of racial discrimination in Malaysia to add to this list of 'colossal' racism. It is hoped that the victims of racism will write in to help expose this situation.
The Malaysian government should publish statistics showing how much Malays had benefited from the 'special rights' of Malays and at the same time release the statistics which show how minority races are being discriminated against.
Hence, the responsibility lies in the Malaysia government itself to publish unadulterated statistics of racial discrimination.
If the Malaysia government hides the statistics above, then there must be some evil doings, immoral doings, shameful doings and sinful doings, like the Nazis, going on with the non-Malays of Malaysia.
Civilized nations, unlike the evil Nazis, must publish statistics to show its treatment of its minority races. This is what Malaysia must publish.
We are asking for the publication of the statistics showing how 'implementation of special rights of Malays' had inflicted colossal racial discrimination onto non-Malays.
Human Book
Asia Insurance Loss Adjuster of the Year 2004, 2005 & 2007
Enterprise 50 2006 & 2007
Golden Bull 2004 - 2008
The BrandLaureate 2007 & 2008
Thursday, August 13, 2009
horoscope personality
另類星座性格分析..
=.=lll 非常惡毒的星座解析 星座
【牡羊座3/22-4/20：一生衝動的笨蛋】
你是一個到老都很白目的人,永遠活在自己的超小世界當中，用井底之蛙形容你，還真汙辱了井底蛙! 衝動，幼稚，無知還不讀書，更慘的是看了一堆書還是抓不到重點,只知道以自己偏頗的狹隘視野看待世界及別人，諸不知別人才看不起你呢！真是個自以為是的白痴！
此 生中你最大的優點就是剛愎自用！因為無法與別人合得來，所以永遠在轉換跑道，還一付我為人人、人皆負我的超機車狀！懷才不遇是活該！懂嗎？其實老天爺對你 不錯，起碼還給了你一點才華，要不然你怎麼死在路邊的都不知道！凡事用點腦筋吧！別老是先做反應再來悔不當初，都已經給你那麼多次的慘痛經驗了！還學不到 教訓，也真服了你了！請你把用來鍛鍊身體的時間，撥一點空來訓練頭腦吧！不是叫你猛K書，長智慧這種事不一定是書上學來的，睜開你的眼睛看看別人為什麼成 功，而你卻還在這聽我的
教訓，一邊聽還一邊恨得牙癢癢的，別人能一笑置之的事，你通常連這等幽默感都沒有，還說什麼滿山滿谷的理想抱負呢！也不怕笑掉別人大牙。
你愛白雪公主，我知道！你愛白馬王子，我清楚！但是，你配嗎？別人長得美，長的帥，自有王宮貴族疼惜，關你屁事，你在那邊搶什麼搶啊？搶也就算了，搶不到還一哭二鬧三上吊，有種就別搶，要搶就用點腦筋，要不然只是讓被你搶的人感到丟臉罷了。
還有，不是每個人都喜歡那種看對眼就要上的感覺，別老是把自己的快樂建築在別人的痛苦上。
金牛座4/21-5/20：冥頑不靈的石頭】
固執到死是你的優勢，如果沒有用固執來保護自己，肯定你活不過24小時！自以為高EQ可以解決一切，就凡事不看、不聽、不用心感受，只利用自己膚淺的經驗值去做判斷，結果就是讓愛你的人傷心，傷透了，你還依然故我，一付"是我害的嗎？"的豬頭樣！
你的工作當然順利囉！因為你陰險的一面是不會輕易顯現出來的，尤其不會讓你的上司知道，但是你同事就蠻倒楣的，因為怎麼被你一腳踹下去的都不知道，你更狠的是，被你出賣的人還搞不清楚自己是怎麼死的，你卻已經叫他過來摸摸頭，證明不是自己幹的。
真的很想捶你，因為這等用謙遜柔弱的外表騙人的卑劣技倆，到老還不知改過，真的是很惡劣！看來金牛座的堅毅，還真用對地方咧！
如 果有人想要改變你，或試圖跟你溝通，我想他一定是瘋了！因為他正在做一項不可能的任務，最慘的是，他並不知自己做不到，還一直浪費時間跟你瞎耗，到頭來青 春也沒了，人也被你逼瘋了，金牛還一臉無辜地說：「沒關係，久了他就習慣了！時間能證明我是對的！」廢話，誰不知道你真的是"一路走來、始終如一"啊，那 又如何？如果只用在頑固不化這項自以為是的優點上，難道還要頒獎給你嗎？你很膚淺，連跟你聊天都很痛苦，因為聊半天都在無聊的事上打轉，連八卦都談不上。
除了金錢跟性愛外，真不知你還有什麼料。你常大聲說自己專情，哈哈，別開玩笑了，除非你的伴侶親口說他不在乎你在外面跟人家摸來摸去還很爽的死德性，要不，你是沒有資格說自己一生只愛一個人的。小氣應該不用再強調了吧！大家都知道金牛到底有多小氣！
【雙子座5/21-6/21：多說多錯的白痴】
如 果告訴你，有一個人"聰明顯於外"，請問，你還覺得他聰明嗎？聰明如你，一定馬上說"不！"還大笑三聲，對不對？但是，還笑，那個"聰明顯於外"的人就是 你！只是你一直以為別人不知道罷了。你只做對自己有利的事，所以在年輕的時候很容易成功，因為你會把A＋B＋C說的話加起來，拿去跟對最你有利的人說，最 後，大家都以為你聰明絕頂，幫你鼓掌加薪，以為你到半夜三點還在K書，才如此博學多聞，其實，只有你自己心理明白，你只是道聽塗說，卻有美化雜音的天份， 拿別人的智慧，長自己的威風。但可悲的是，這種招數，真的只有小孩才會被你騙3次，說穿了，你就是不用功，博而不精，樣樣淺學，老了才來後悔，哈，來不及 了！
你有個最大的優點，就是無情，雖然大家都被你騙得很好，以為你很熱情，才怪！你這種拒別人於千里之外的好習慣，信不信，終有一天踢到鐵板。其 實每人都有冷漠的权利，但有種就做到表裡如一，不要跟人家玩一玩，覺得別人不好玩了，或沒有利用價值了，就又一溜煙的跑掉了！沒品就算了，當別人帶著大隊 人馬來要脅你時，你又馬上下跪求饒，真沒種！這種見風轉舵，下一秒鐘就推翻自己的超能力，大概也只有你才幹得出來，但是，旁人看了都累，你，不累嗎？你是 個超沒安全感的人，總是神經兮兮其實就是因為自己壞事做多了，老怕被抓包的心態作祟，所謂"夜路走多了，總會遇到鬼！"
看看你，全世界的鬼都被你遇光了，還不知自我檢點，少幹點壞事，不就得了！
【巨蟹座6/22-7/22：永遠活在殼裡的膽小鬼】
每 天躲在殼裡很爽嗎？不見天日的日子，大概只有你受得了，每天自怨自艾，老是覺得別人在害你，這種愛作夢的習性，根本就是一個超級自虐狂！因為你根本沒那麼 重要，值得別人加害於你。但是這種隨時附和別人的習性，只為求得別人多一點關懷，多一點憐憫，說穿了就是沒自信，永遠只能靠別人的一點點認同度日，真是可 悲到極點。世界上沒有一個人讀同一本聖經，所以請不要用你心中的那把尺去衡量別人，沒有人天生應該去接受另一個人的價值觀，也不應該被別人改變，所以請不 要在你無法改變別人時，
就覺得都是別人狠心要傷害你，因為世界不是你一個人的，如果你覺得別人不照你設定的路走，並不代表他心中就沒有你或不尊重 你，如果還老是覺得受傷，告訴你，那是自找的！無聊加三級的後果！理性一點好嗎？情感過剩叫無知，如果世上每個人都跟你一樣只聽情緒的話，那麼這個世界肯 定不會進步，還會到處充滿戰爭，走倒退路，不承認對吧？麻煩你去問一下賓拉登跟小布希是啥星座的，再來反對我不遲！
星座學上常說巨蟹座的人最有母愛，但是，母親的偉大，與你何干？我看，溺爱與縱容，跟你的性格比較像吧！在感情的路上，你超昏庸！還沒搞懂對手幾分真，自己幾兩重，就陷下去無法自拔。吃東西時，你又超縱容，縱容自己吃得跟豬一樣，也不覺得可恥！
記 恨是你的長處，再小的芝麻小事，你也可以記它個二十輩子，不管別人是不是已經跟你道過歉了，還是早就跟你解釋清楚了，還是根本是一個小小的無心之過，你皆 不放過一丁點!恨的機會，你儘管記吧！儘管恨吧！反正你恨到死在路邊也沒人會理你，你這個自卑又自憐的傢伙，記住，可憐之人必有可恨之處！
【獅子座7/23-8/22：拿掌聲當氧氣的渾球】
世 界上最差的領導人就是你，因為你是一個只在乎自己爽不爽的渾蛋,怎麼可能成為一個統帥三軍的領袖呢？別作夢了！再等三輩子吧！是誰說你可以成為一個明星 的？這麼不可信的謊言你也信？真是好騙加三級，昏庸加三級！誰都看得出來你只是愛作秀罷了，而且是不管別人愛不愛看，想不想看，現在有沒有空或心情看，你 都照秀不誤，除了說你自私自大且無自知之明外，還有更貼切的形容嗎？我知道面子對你很重要，但你有沒有想過，為了固好面子，你往往將別人的顏面狠狠的踩在 腳下，深深傷害了那些真
正對你好的人，真的是很渾！
你是一個聽不懂人話的人，什麼意思？因為你一向只關心自己要講什麼，而從不去聽懂別人 到底要說什麼，想要表達的是什麼。說明白一點，你還真是萬獸之王，只有獸性，沒人性。昏庸是你終其一生的優勢，由於永遠拒絕看清事實的真相，所以很容易被 騙，被有心人操縱，但你還是樂在其中，因為你就喜歡那種要人命的甜言蜜語，聽了不用錢，還能讓你飄飄欲仙，這就是為什麼到老你都還死樂觀的原因，因為你都 一直以為自己是最優秀的，哈哈，真替你感到可悲！
你永遠在談戀愛，為什麼？因為你永遠會被甩且永遠無法得知你伴侶離開你的真正原因，然後就一直換 對象，所以你永遠在談戀愛，還自以為自己很有魅力咧。抗議了對吧！明明就是你甩別人的，不是嗎？相信我，當你的愛人不要你時，為了儘速脫離苦海，他們會想 進一切辦法騙你這個大笨蛋，包括做一些很惹你厭的行為，讓你誤以為是自己先受不了他，非甩掉他不可，但你又錯了，其實你早就被設計了。所以別自抬身價了， 事情不是你想像中那樣的！聽懂了沒？記住：想要控制別人者，恆被控之！
【處女座8/23-9/22：目光如豆的可憐蟲】
批 評成癖，對任何人都沒好處。世界上只有精神病患有資格一直碎碎念，其實，處女座還真值得人同情，因為沒有安全感，只好用碎碎念來發洩，當然，也有不講話的 處女，千萬不要以為這是他的本性，這只代表了，第一，他跟你不熟，還沒能完全信任你，第二，他正在拿悶騷保護自己。討人厭的是，騷就騷啦，還裝個超完美的 死樣子。我知道你骨子裡很希望別人把你當成一個正人君子看待，但是，你明明就不是啊，充其量只是假道學罷了！
你真的以為你什麼都懂嗎？什麼事都應 該剁得碎碎的來檢驗嗎？永遠覺得別人有問題，值得拿來好好分析就很高明嗎？告訴你，目光如豆真的是你的敗筆，因為沒有人像你一樣永遠只在乎細節，且一輩子 看不見方向。你永遠得不到你想要的愛情，因為縱使你口口聲聲說自己愛得有多深，但你心中真正愛的那個人，一定會被你嚇跑，不嚇跑也被唸跑！
你到死也學不會，愛的真諦叫包容，不叫挑剔。跟一個人和平共處一輩子，雖然是你的夢 想，但它真的只會是你的夢想，你永遠也不可能跟別人和平共處一個月，更何況是一輩子！因為你眼中只能看見別人的缺點，任何人在你面前都是笨蛋，沒有人事情 做得比你好，那你就自己做啊，做死你好了，你這個死勞碌命！講話超難聽，明明你沒惡意，甚至是好意，但每件事經你的金口一開，莫名其妙就矗立了一堆敵人， 真有一套，真令人稱奇！世人皆無如你一般轟走別人的超能力！
【天秤座9/23-10/23：永遠失衡的秤子】
凡 事講求平衡叫做沒重點。老想要對所有人公平，結果就是讓所有人都覺得不公平！什麼都想要的結果就是什麼都要不到！你有一種超變態的討好人的壞習慣，永遠在 試圖演出別人心中的大好人，結果只成為一個超級大爛人，口口聲聲說不在乎別人的看法，但表現出來的卻是超在意所有人對你的一點點小意見，超級無聊到底！
你 幾乎無法獨處，原因有X項：第一、你很懶，如果沒人幫你倒水，肯定你會渴死；沒有別人照顧，你家就是一個垃圾場！第二、你很怕寂寞，從不懂一個人該如何自 處！還有，你老有一種無聊至極的正義感，好像在伸張正義、濟弱扶傾，但卻常常導致一些沒必要的爭執，影響了不少原本沒意思要爭吵的人，也跟你加入了一場沒 有的戰火中，結果原本可以和平落幕的事件，卻因為你跳出來發言，導致沒抓狂的人抓狂，已抓狂的人發瘋！可悲的是，所有人還推舉你為英雄，以為你在幫他們爭 取福利，其實，你只是沒膽跟惡勢力對抗，就找一堆人來墊背！害了別人，還不以為意，居然光明正大的當起工會領袖來了，真是可惡到家！
你到處亂放電 的下流習性，真可謂世界第一！還有，你那種可以在A情人面前講B情人如何如何卻神態自若的德性，看了真叫人想扁你！你真的以為別人都不知道你在搞啥東東 嗎？不過是想要證明自己有多厲害，可以搞定別人搞不定的狀況罷了！但是，這叫厲害嗎？這叫"不知廉恥"！清楚了嗎？還裝無辜，都是別人愛上你的，所以都不 是你的錯！沒肩膀的爛傢伙！
【天蠍座10/24-1122：天生疑心病的冷血動物】
在你眼中，別人都是低等動物，但你可能不知，在別人眼中，你連動物都不如！一天到晚懷疑別人，這樣很過癮嗎？告訴你，你沒那麼偉大，沒人有空一天到晚編故事，只是為了欺騙你！所以，拜託你收起你的自動掃毒系統，因為你才是那個最毒且最該被懷疑的人！
計 較是你的優點，自私是你的終身職，小氣更是你的特色，像你這種沒血沒眼泪的渾蛋，真的應該被發配邊疆，等到哪天連水都沒得喝的時候，你可能才會知道惜緣惜 福，而不是一再的批評、批評再批評！有人說你很有大將之風是吧！是啊！是啊！但是你身邊也只是一堆狗奴才，因為除了唯唯諾諾能保住一條小命之外，根本就不 可能有任何一個將才受得了你的死脾氣，而會繼續待在你這個不知尊重別人的渾球身邊！
利用別人也是你的才華，凡是在你身邊的每個人，一定皆有其利用 價值，不管是買便當的、當司機的、掃地的，還是當幕僚的、幫你出餿主意的、幫你付錢或賺錢的，甚至是無怨無悔被你罵的，每一個人都一定有個什麼作用，但可 悲的是，當這些人的利用價值不見的時候，也就是他們被你一腳踢開的時候！世上有你這種死沒天良的惡毒份子還真不多見，但是，不能再說你惡毒了，因為你甚至 會覺得這是一種讚美，可能還會狂笑三聲，真是個沒心沒肝的死變態！
你的愛情觀很低級，沒事就會找一個對眼的目標，問他要不要跟你上？如果人家不答應，你就頭也不回的走人，好像人與人之間只有性，別無其他！像這種只有低等動物才幹得出來的事你也做，真是丟死全人類的臉！
【射手座11/23-12/21：沒骨氣的落跑大王】
少 一根筋有啥好驕傲的，少蠢了好不好！一個太直接的人叫作笨好嗎？不是凡事一針見血就有效！你沒聽過欲速則不達嗎？這些致命的缺點，通常射手身邊的人都很清 楚，只有射手自己不清楚！因為少一根筋的關係，導致做事瞻前不顧後，說話總是有口無心，傷害了不少至親摯友，但自己仍渾然不知。你最厲害的一招是，當你把 一件好好的事情搞砸的時候，自己卻當起第一個落跑的人，真的是旋風小飛俠，來無影去無蹤，不知你身在何方，天良何在！
超級自戀狂，從不知鏡子對你的作用是啥？反正照了也沒用，因為你是一個永遠看不見自己缺點，厚臉皮到家的人！當射手眼中有一個目標的時候，世界就只剩下那一個目標，導致你完全感覺不到週遭到底發生了啥事，天塌下來也與你無關！
沒 看過記憶力太差，還把它當作自己的優點，拿來驕傲地掛在嘴邊一直講的傻蛋，諸不知世上十個忘了關瓦斯的人九個是射手座的笨蛋；十個把小孩帶出門，忘了帶尿 片跟奶瓶的人九個是射手座的蠢蛋；但是，十個到機場九個忘了帶護照的，就絕對不會是射手，因為出去玩這檔事，射手可從來沒馬虎過！
你個愛情觀就別 提了吧！因為你從來都只有三秒鐘的專情能力，一看到新貨就像惡狼一樣的撲過去，絲毫不知羞恥，然後連對老情人說拜拜都沒有，又是一溜煙的消失，不負責任到 家！還有，花也就算了，卻連說謊的本事也沒有，老是被抓包，什麼唇印、戲票、給別人的情書啦，通通都留在身上，真是個凡走過必留下痕跡的大白痴！
【魔羯座12/22-1/20：無趣到死的木頭人】
當一個魔羯座的人真的蠻可憐的，不只身邊的人會因為覺得你太無趣而離開你，連你自己都受不了再繼續過這種了無新意的生活，卻無能為力?─變這種現狀，真是悲哀到家!
因 為永遠不知變通，所以只好墨守成規，畫地自限，但可憐的是，偏偏魔羯又是世上野心最大的人，所以常常有一種為什麼別人沒有視我為最重要人物的不平之鳴，因 為自己沒種，只敢想卻又不敢表達出來，所以長期壓抑下來的結果，不是得了憂鬱症，就是變成變態狂！別傻了！沒人會同情你的，因為你這種死悲觀，到老也改不 了，所以誰也懶得理你！
永遠活在過去的成就跟陰影當中，以苦為樂，常看到一個魔羯不是在說"想當初我過得多苦，哪有像你現在過得那麼好命"；就是 在說"想當初，我經過了多少努力，如何功成名就。那種把自身的痛苦誇大並保存的能力無人能敵，而且越老越嚴重！悶也就算了，還老愛教訓人，教訓人也就算 了，還毫無創意，永遠說著同樣的訓辭，三百條原則壓死自己還不夠，還要壓死那些你身邊的親朋好友，拜託，人生苦短，你要自己沉沦在痛苦中真的隨便你，但請 不要用你自己訂出來的教條，去要求無辜的人。
一個太無趣的人，怎麼可能有愛情？所以，等下輩子吧！看看到老，有沒有辦法被你等到那種心地善良得要死的好人，願意跟你在一起，而且是只為了你的財產！當然，你還是得感激他，因為畢竟為了錢得忍受一生無聊也是不容易的事！
【水瓶座1/21-2/19：聽不懂人話的外星人】
基 本上，水瓶座活在別的星球，你不是地球人，不說地球話！當然也聽不懂別人在說啥，因為全都跟你無關！千萬別稱水瓶為怪胎，他會洋洋得意，不能自己，因為他 才懶得跟這一群凡人一樣，他寧願當個異類，也不願意被當個正常人一般看待，所以，當你發現一個怪胎，千萬別懷疑，他一定是水瓶座！
老自以為是天 才，卻做出蠢材的行為，水瓶的一生職志永遠在改變，而且令人不恥，不是立志當個情婦、小白臉，就是賺到一大筆錢然後拿去月球走一遭，或是去住到難民區，餓 死了也沒關係，這一切只為了跟別人不一樣。像你這種以自我為中心的渾蛋，一付無父無母、沒大沒小，沒分寸慣了的死小孩，鐵定一天怎麼死在路邊的都沒人知 道！你從不關心別人對你的想法，永遠只做自己想做的事，所以你的親人很倒楣，常遭池魚之殃，因為當你一再不斷闖禍，又不肯承認自己有錯的時候，擦屁股的永 遠是你可憐的家
人，而你卻還置身事外，一付事不關己的死嘴臉！
博愛是拿來對全人類的，不是拿來對待你的愛情的，OK？你的情人就算哭死也 改變不了你花心的事實，但可恨的是，花就花了心還美其名為博愛,聽了就覺得欠揍！甚至還覺得別人哭死活該，"誰叫他自己愛嘛，又不是我逼他的！"像這種沒 天良的話也只有水瓶說得出來！甚至還會觉得自己很偉大，賜給情人一個成長的機會，事過境遷，就忘了自己給別人的傷害，還敢繼續聯絡，自認為別人還是他一輩 子的朋友！真是個標準的大渾蛋！
【雙魚座2/20-3/21：沒長腦的稀有動物】
超 級幻想主義加現實主義的綜合體，如果說你是浪漫主義，還真汙辱了浪漫兩個字，因為你的浪漫只用在你自己的腦袋跟你泪汪汪的眼框裡，從來就沒有實踐過，因為 你根本沒有能力。所以你只有幻想，沒資格說浪漫！但奇怪的是，你又超現實，跟別人算錢的時候你可一點都不含糊，那種算計的嘴臉，也叫人看了終身難忘！世上 如果有一種獎叫作"毫無道德獎"，你一定是首獎的領受者，因為你一直都沒有受過美德教育，所以在你身上，除了人性的陰暗面，其他都看不見，什麼藥物啦、酗 酒啦、姦情啦，凡跟醜聞有關的事，大都跟你脫不了關係，真是令人崇拜！
情緒主導了你的一生，真是令人感到可悲，因為你怎麼也學不會用一丁點的理智 來幫助你淒慘的人生，到老死的時候，還會認為你們家壞掉的洗衣機，只是為了跟你做對，才故意不讓你洗衣服！瘋到這種程度，連三歲小孩都會因為你的無知，替 你感到難過！因為情緒加無知，導致你的生活完全操控在別人手裡，別人永遠不知哪句話已經得罪你的哪條神經，不過也沒關係，因為你這個無聊份子，在剛發完誓 說自己永遠不理某某某的同時沒多久，又馬上諒了那個剛剛被你詛咒的人，天啊！這種人格分裂，只有你自己受得了！
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【牡羊座3/22-4/20：一生衝動的笨蛋】
你是一個到老都很白目的人,永遠活在自己的超小世界當中，用井底之蛙形容你，還真汙辱了井底蛙! 衝動，幼稚，無知還不讀書，更慘的是看了一堆書還是抓不到重點,只知道以自己偏頗的狹隘視野看待世界及別人，諸不知別人才看不起你呢！真是個自以為是的白痴！
此 生中你最大的優點就是剛愎自用！因為無法與別人合得來，所以永遠在轉換跑道，還一付我為人人、人皆負我的超機車狀！懷才不遇是活該！懂嗎？其實老天爺對你 不錯，起碼還給了你一點才華，要不然你怎麼死在路邊的都不知道！凡事用點腦筋吧！別老是先做反應再來悔不當初，都已經給你那麼多次的慘痛經驗了！還學不到 教訓，也真服了你了！請你把用來鍛鍊身體的時間，撥一點空來訓練頭腦吧！不是叫你猛K書，長智慧這種事不一定是書上學來的，睜開你的眼睛看看別人為什麼成 功，而你卻還在這聽我的
教訓，一邊聽還一邊恨得牙癢癢的，別人能一笑置之的事，你通常連這等幽默感都沒有，還說什麼滿山滿谷的理想抱負呢！也不怕笑掉別人大牙。
你愛白雪公主，我知道！你愛白馬王子，我清楚！但是，你配嗎？別人長得美，長的帥，自有王宮貴族疼惜，關你屁事，你在那邊搶什麼搶啊？搶也就算了，搶不到還一哭二鬧三上吊，有種就別搶，要搶就用點腦筋，要不然只是讓被你搶的人感到丟臉罷了。
還有，不是每個人都喜歡那種看對眼就要上的感覺，別老是把自己的快樂建築在別人的痛苦上。
金牛座4/21-5/20：冥頑不靈的石頭】
固執到死是你的優勢，如果沒有用固執來保護自己，肯定你活不過24小時！自以為高EQ可以解決一切，就凡事不看、不聽、不用心感受，只利用自己膚淺的經驗值去做判斷，結果就是讓愛你的人傷心，傷透了，你還依然故我，一付"是我害的嗎？"的豬頭樣！
你的工作當然順利囉！因為你陰險的一面是不會輕易顯現出來的，尤其不會讓你的上司知道，但是你同事就蠻倒楣的，因為怎麼被你一腳踹下去的都不知道，你更狠的是，被你出賣的人還搞不清楚自己是怎麼死的，你卻已經叫他過來摸摸頭，證明不是自己幹的。
真的很想捶你，因為這等用謙遜柔弱的外表騙人的卑劣技倆，到老還不知改過，真的是很惡劣！看來金牛座的堅毅，還真用對地方咧！
如 果有人想要改變你，或試圖跟你溝通，我想他一定是瘋了！因為他正在做一項不可能的任務，最慘的是，他並不知自己做不到，還一直浪費時間跟你瞎耗，到頭來青 春也沒了，人也被你逼瘋了，金牛還一臉無辜地說：「沒關係，久了他就習慣了！時間能證明我是對的！」廢話，誰不知道你真的是"一路走來、始終如一"啊，那 又如何？如果只用在頑固不化這項自以為是的優點上，難道還要頒獎給你嗎？你很膚淺，連跟你聊天都很痛苦，因為聊半天都在無聊的事上打轉，連八卦都談不上。
除了金錢跟性愛外，真不知你還有什麼料。你常大聲說自己專情，哈哈，別開玩笑了，除非你的伴侶親口說他不在乎你在外面跟人家摸來摸去還很爽的死德性，要不，你是沒有資格說自己一生只愛一個人的。小氣應該不用再強調了吧！大家都知道金牛到底有多小氣！
【雙子座5/21-6/21：多說多錯的白痴】
如 果告訴你，有一個人"聰明顯於外"，請問，你還覺得他聰明嗎？聰明如你，一定馬上說"不！"還大笑三聲，對不對？但是，還笑，那個"聰明顯於外"的人就是 你！只是你一直以為別人不知道罷了。你只做對自己有利的事，所以在年輕的時候很容易成功，因為你會把A＋B＋C說的話加起來，拿去跟對最你有利的人說，最 後，大家都以為你聰明絕頂，幫你鼓掌加薪，以為你到半夜三點還在K書，才如此博學多聞，其實，只有你自己心理明白，你只是道聽塗說，卻有美化雜音的天份， 拿別人的智慧，長自己的威風。但可悲的是，這種招數，真的只有小孩才會被你騙3次，說穿了，你就是不用功，博而不精，樣樣淺學，老了才來後悔，哈，來不及 了！
你有個最大的優點，就是無情，雖然大家都被你騙得很好，以為你很熱情，才怪！你這種拒別人於千里之外的好習慣，信不信，終有一天踢到鐵板。其 實每人都有冷漠的权利，但有種就做到表裡如一，不要跟人家玩一玩，覺得別人不好玩了，或沒有利用價值了，就又一溜煙的跑掉了！沒品就算了，當別人帶著大隊 人馬來要脅你時，你又馬上下跪求饒，真沒種！這種見風轉舵，下一秒鐘就推翻自己的超能力，大概也只有你才幹得出來，但是，旁人看了都累，你，不累嗎？你是 個超沒安全感的人，總是神經兮兮其實就是因為自己壞事做多了，老怕被抓包的心態作祟，所謂"夜路走多了，總會遇到鬼！"
看看你，全世界的鬼都被你遇光了，還不知自我檢點，少幹點壞事，不就得了！
【巨蟹座6/22-7/22：永遠活在殼裡的膽小鬼】
每 天躲在殼裡很爽嗎？不見天日的日子，大概只有你受得了，每天自怨自艾，老是覺得別人在害你，這種愛作夢的習性，根本就是一個超級自虐狂！因為你根本沒那麼 重要，值得別人加害於你。但是這種隨時附和別人的習性，只為求得別人多一點關懷，多一點憐憫，說穿了就是沒自信，永遠只能靠別人的一點點認同度日，真是可 悲到極點。世界上沒有一個人讀同一本聖經，所以請不要用你心中的那把尺去衡量別人，沒有人天生應該去接受另一個人的價值觀，也不應該被別人改變，所以請不 要在你無法改變別人時，
就覺得都是別人狠心要傷害你，因為世界不是你一個人的，如果你覺得別人不照你設定的路走，並不代表他心中就沒有你或不尊重 你，如果還老是覺得受傷，告訴你，那是自找的！無聊加三級的後果！理性一點好嗎？情感過剩叫無知，如果世上每個人都跟你一樣只聽情緒的話，那麼這個世界肯 定不會進步，還會到處充滿戰爭，走倒退路，不承認對吧？麻煩你去問一下賓拉登跟小布希是啥星座的，再來反對我不遲！
星座學上常說巨蟹座的人最有母愛，但是，母親的偉大，與你何干？我看，溺爱與縱容，跟你的性格比較像吧！在感情的路上，你超昏庸！還沒搞懂對手幾分真，自己幾兩重，就陷下去無法自拔。吃東西時，你又超縱容，縱容自己吃得跟豬一樣，也不覺得可恥！
記 恨是你的長處，再小的芝麻小事，你也可以記它個二十輩子，不管別人是不是已經跟你道過歉了，還是早就跟你解釋清楚了，還是根本是一個小小的無心之過，你皆 不放過一丁點!恨的機會，你儘管記吧！儘管恨吧！反正你恨到死在路邊也沒人會理你，你這個自卑又自憐的傢伙，記住，可憐之人必有可恨之處！
【獅子座7/23-8/22：拿掌聲當氧氣的渾球】
世 界上最差的領導人就是你，因為你是一個只在乎自己爽不爽的渾蛋,怎麼可能成為一個統帥三軍的領袖呢？別作夢了！再等三輩子吧！是誰說你可以成為一個明星 的？這麼不可信的謊言你也信？真是好騙加三級，昏庸加三級！誰都看得出來你只是愛作秀罷了，而且是不管別人愛不愛看，想不想看，現在有沒有空或心情看，你 都照秀不誤，除了說你自私自大且無自知之明外，還有更貼切的形容嗎？我知道面子對你很重要，但你有沒有想過，為了固好面子，你往往將別人的顏面狠狠的踩在 腳下，深深傷害了那些真
正對你好的人，真的是很渾！
你是一個聽不懂人話的人，什麼意思？因為你一向只關心自己要講什麼，而從不去聽懂別人 到底要說什麼，想要表達的是什麼。說明白一點，你還真是萬獸之王，只有獸性，沒人性。昏庸是你終其一生的優勢，由於永遠拒絕看清事實的真相，所以很容易被 騙，被有心人操縱，但你還是樂在其中，因為你就喜歡那種要人命的甜言蜜語，聽了不用錢，還能讓你飄飄欲仙，這就是為什麼到老你都還死樂觀的原因，因為你都 一直以為自己是最優秀的，哈哈，真替你感到可悲！
你永遠在談戀愛，為什麼？因為你永遠會被甩且永遠無法得知你伴侶離開你的真正原因，然後就一直換 對象，所以你永遠在談戀愛，還自以為自己很有魅力咧。抗議了對吧！明明就是你甩別人的，不是嗎？相信我，當你的愛人不要你時，為了儘速脫離苦海，他們會想 進一切辦法騙你這個大笨蛋，包括做一些很惹你厭的行為，讓你誤以為是自己先受不了他，非甩掉他不可，但你又錯了，其實你早就被設計了。所以別自抬身價了， 事情不是你想像中那樣的！聽懂了沒？記住：想要控制別人者，恆被控之！
【處女座8/23-9/22：目光如豆的可憐蟲】
批 評成癖，對任何人都沒好處。世界上只有精神病患有資格一直碎碎念，其實，處女座還真值得人同情，因為沒有安全感，只好用碎碎念來發洩，當然，也有不講話的 處女，千萬不要以為這是他的本性，這只代表了，第一，他跟你不熟，還沒能完全信任你，第二，他正在拿悶騷保護自己。討人厭的是，騷就騷啦，還裝個超完美的 死樣子。我知道你骨子裡很希望別人把你當成一個正人君子看待，但是，你明明就不是啊，充其量只是假道學罷了！
你真的以為你什麼都懂嗎？什麼事都應 該剁得碎碎的來檢驗嗎？永遠覺得別人有問題，值得拿來好好分析就很高明嗎？告訴你，目光如豆真的是你的敗筆，因為沒有人像你一樣永遠只在乎細節，且一輩子 看不見方向。你永遠得不到你想要的愛情，因為縱使你口口聲聲說自己愛得有多深，但你心中真正愛的那個人，一定會被你嚇跑，不嚇跑也被唸跑！
你到死也學不會，愛的真諦叫包容，不叫挑剔。跟一個人和平共處一輩子，雖然是你的夢 想，但它真的只會是你的夢想，你永遠也不可能跟別人和平共處一個月，更何況是一輩子！因為你眼中只能看見別人的缺點，任何人在你面前都是笨蛋，沒有人事情 做得比你好，那你就自己做啊，做死你好了，你這個死勞碌命！講話超難聽，明明你沒惡意，甚至是好意，但每件事經你的金口一開，莫名其妙就矗立了一堆敵人， 真有一套，真令人稱奇！世人皆無如你一般轟走別人的超能力！
【天秤座9/23-10/23：永遠失衡的秤子】
凡 事講求平衡叫做沒重點。老想要對所有人公平，結果就是讓所有人都覺得不公平！什麼都想要的結果就是什麼都要不到！你有一種超變態的討好人的壞習慣，永遠在 試圖演出別人心中的大好人，結果只成為一個超級大爛人，口口聲聲說不在乎別人的看法，但表現出來的卻是超在意所有人對你的一點點小意見，超級無聊到底！
你 幾乎無法獨處，原因有X項：第一、你很懶，如果沒人幫你倒水，肯定你會渴死；沒有別人照顧，你家就是一個垃圾場！第二、你很怕寂寞，從不懂一個人該如何自 處！還有，你老有一種無聊至極的正義感，好像在伸張正義、濟弱扶傾，但卻常常導致一些沒必要的爭執，影響了不少原本沒意思要爭吵的人，也跟你加入了一場沒 有的戰火中，結果原本可以和平落幕的事件，卻因為你跳出來發言，導致沒抓狂的人抓狂，已抓狂的人發瘋！可悲的是，所有人還推舉你為英雄，以為你在幫他們爭 取福利，其實，你只是沒膽跟惡勢力對抗，就找一堆人來墊背！害了別人，還不以為意，居然光明正大的當起工會領袖來了，真是可惡到家！
你到處亂放電 的下流習性，真可謂世界第一！還有，你那種可以在A情人面前講B情人如何如何卻神態自若的德性，看了真叫人想扁你！你真的以為別人都不知道你在搞啥東東 嗎？不過是想要證明自己有多厲害，可以搞定別人搞不定的狀況罷了！但是，這叫厲害嗎？這叫"不知廉恥"！清楚了嗎？還裝無辜，都是別人愛上你的，所以都不 是你的錯！沒肩膀的爛傢伙！
【天蠍座10/24-1122：天生疑心病的冷血動物】
在你眼中，別人都是低等動物，但你可能不知，在別人眼中，你連動物都不如！一天到晚懷疑別人，這樣很過癮嗎？告訴你，你沒那麼偉大，沒人有空一天到晚編故事，只是為了欺騙你！所以，拜託你收起你的自動掃毒系統，因為你才是那個最毒且最該被懷疑的人！
計 較是你的優點，自私是你的終身職，小氣更是你的特色，像你這種沒血沒眼泪的渾蛋，真的應該被發配邊疆，等到哪天連水都沒得喝的時候，你可能才會知道惜緣惜 福，而不是一再的批評、批評再批評！有人說你很有大將之風是吧！是啊！是啊！但是你身邊也只是一堆狗奴才，因為除了唯唯諾諾能保住一條小命之外，根本就不 可能有任何一個將才受得了你的死脾氣，而會繼續待在你這個不知尊重別人的渾球身邊！
利用別人也是你的才華，凡是在你身邊的每個人，一定皆有其利用 價值，不管是買便當的、當司機的、掃地的，還是當幕僚的、幫你出餿主意的、幫你付錢或賺錢的，甚至是無怨無悔被你罵的，每一個人都一定有個什麼作用，但可 悲的是，當這些人的利用價值不見的時候，也就是他們被你一腳踢開的時候！世上有你這種死沒天良的惡毒份子還真不多見，但是，不能再說你惡毒了，因為你甚至 會覺得這是一種讚美，可能還會狂笑三聲，真是個沒心沒肝的死變態！
你的愛情觀很低級，沒事就會找一個對眼的目標，問他要不要跟你上？如果人家不答應，你就頭也不回的走人，好像人與人之間只有性，別無其他！像這種只有低等動物才幹得出來的事你也做，真是丟死全人類的臉！
【射手座11/23-12/21：沒骨氣的落跑大王】
少 一根筋有啥好驕傲的，少蠢了好不好！一個太直接的人叫作笨好嗎？不是凡事一針見血就有效！你沒聽過欲速則不達嗎？這些致命的缺點，通常射手身邊的人都很清 楚，只有射手自己不清楚！因為少一根筋的關係，導致做事瞻前不顧後，說話總是有口無心，傷害了不少至親摯友，但自己仍渾然不知。你最厲害的一招是，當你把 一件好好的事情搞砸的時候，自己卻當起第一個落跑的人，真的是旋風小飛俠，來無影去無蹤，不知你身在何方，天良何在！
超級自戀狂，從不知鏡子對你的作用是啥？反正照了也沒用，因為你是一個永遠看不見自己缺點，厚臉皮到家的人！當射手眼中有一個目標的時候，世界就只剩下那一個目標，導致你完全感覺不到週遭到底發生了啥事，天塌下來也與你無關！
沒 看過記憶力太差，還把它當作自己的優點，拿來驕傲地掛在嘴邊一直講的傻蛋，諸不知世上十個忘了關瓦斯的人九個是射手座的笨蛋；十個把小孩帶出門，忘了帶尿 片跟奶瓶的人九個是射手座的蠢蛋；但是，十個到機場九個忘了帶護照的，就絕對不會是射手，因為出去玩這檔事，射手可從來沒馬虎過！
你個愛情觀就別 提了吧！因為你從來都只有三秒鐘的專情能力，一看到新貨就像惡狼一樣的撲過去，絲毫不知羞恥，然後連對老情人說拜拜都沒有，又是一溜煙的消失，不負責任到 家！還有，花也就算了，卻連說謊的本事也沒有，老是被抓包，什麼唇印、戲票、給別人的情書啦，通通都留在身上，真是個凡走過必留下痕跡的大白痴！
【魔羯座12/22-1/20：無趣到死的木頭人】
當一個魔羯座的人真的蠻可憐的，不只身邊的人會因為覺得你太無趣而離開你，連你自己都受不了再繼續過這種了無新意的生活，卻無能為力?─變這種現狀，真是悲哀到家!
因 為永遠不知變通，所以只好墨守成規，畫地自限，但可憐的是，偏偏魔羯又是世上野心最大的人，所以常常有一種為什麼別人沒有視我為最重要人物的不平之鳴，因 為自己沒種，只敢想卻又不敢表達出來，所以長期壓抑下來的結果，不是得了憂鬱症，就是變成變態狂！別傻了！沒人會同情你的，因為你這種死悲觀，到老也改不 了，所以誰也懶得理你！
永遠活在過去的成就跟陰影當中，以苦為樂，常看到一個魔羯不是在說"想當初我過得多苦，哪有像你現在過得那麼好命"；就是 在說"想當初，我經過了多少努力，如何功成名就。那種把自身的痛苦誇大並保存的能力無人能敵，而且越老越嚴重！悶也就算了，還老愛教訓人，教訓人也就算 了，還毫無創意，永遠說著同樣的訓辭，三百條原則壓死自己還不夠，還要壓死那些你身邊的親朋好友，拜託，人生苦短，你要自己沉沦在痛苦中真的隨便你，但請 不要用你自己訂出來的教條，去要求無辜的人。
一個太無趣的人，怎麼可能有愛情？所以，等下輩子吧！看看到老，有沒有辦法被你等到那種心地善良得要死的好人，願意跟你在一起，而且是只為了你的財產！當然，你還是得感激他，因為畢竟為了錢得忍受一生無聊也是不容易的事！
【水瓶座1/21-2/19：聽不懂人話的外星人】
基 本上，水瓶座活在別的星球，你不是地球人，不說地球話！當然也聽不懂別人在說啥，因為全都跟你無關！千萬別稱水瓶為怪胎，他會洋洋得意，不能自己，因為他 才懶得跟這一群凡人一樣，他寧願當個異類，也不願意被當個正常人一般看待，所以，當你發現一個怪胎，千萬別懷疑，他一定是水瓶座！
老自以為是天 才，卻做出蠢材的行為，水瓶的一生職志永遠在改變，而且令人不恥，不是立志當個情婦、小白臉，就是賺到一大筆錢然後拿去月球走一遭，或是去住到難民區，餓 死了也沒關係，這一切只為了跟別人不一樣。像你這種以自我為中心的渾蛋，一付無父無母、沒大沒小，沒分寸慣了的死小孩，鐵定一天怎麼死在路邊的都沒人知 道！你從不關心別人對你的想法，永遠只做自己想做的事，所以你的親人很倒楣，常遭池魚之殃，因為當你一再不斷闖禍，又不肯承認自己有錯的時候，擦屁股的永 遠是你可憐的家
人，而你卻還置身事外，一付事不關己的死嘴臉！
博愛是拿來對全人類的，不是拿來對待你的愛情的，OK？你的情人就算哭死也 改變不了你花心的事實，但可恨的是，花就花了心還美其名為博愛,聽了就覺得欠揍！甚至還覺得別人哭死活該，"誰叫他自己愛嘛，又不是我逼他的！"像這種沒 天良的話也只有水瓶說得出來！甚至還會觉得自己很偉大，賜給情人一個成長的機會，事過境遷，就忘了自己給別人的傷害，還敢繼續聯絡，自認為別人還是他一輩 子的朋友！真是個標準的大渾蛋！
【雙魚座2/20-3/21：沒長腦的稀有動物】
超 級幻想主義加現實主義的綜合體，如果說你是浪漫主義，還真汙辱了浪漫兩個字，因為你的浪漫只用在你自己的腦袋跟你泪汪汪的眼框裡，從來就沒有實踐過，因為 你根本沒有能力。所以你只有幻想，沒資格說浪漫！但奇怪的是，你又超現實，跟別人算錢的時候你可一點都不含糊，那種算計的嘴臉，也叫人看了終身難忘！世上 如果有一種獎叫作"毫無道德獎"，你一定是首獎的領受者，因為你一直都沒有受過美德教育，所以在你身上，除了人性的陰暗面，其他都看不見，什麼藥物啦、酗 酒啦、姦情啦，凡跟醜聞有關的事，大都跟你脫不了關係，真是令人崇拜！
情緒主導了你的一生，真是令人感到可悲，因為你怎麼也學不會用一丁點的理智 來幫助你淒慘的人生，到老死的時候，還會認為你們家壞掉的洗衣機，只是為了跟你做對，才故意不讓你洗衣服！瘋到這種程度，連三歲小孩都會因為你的無知，替 你感到難過！因為情緒加無知，導致你的生活完全操控在別人手裡，別人永遠不知哪句話已經得罪你的哪條神經，不過也沒關係，因為你這個無聊份子，在剛發完誓 說自己永遠不理某某某的同時沒多久，又馬上諒了那個剛剛被你詛咒的人，天啊！這種人格分裂，只有你自己受得了！
Steamboat
What kind of season will you enjoy eating steamboat?
A. Winter ( To Qn 2)
B. Summer (To Qn 5)
C. No matter what season (To Qn 1)
1. Do you like to have some sauce on your food?
A. Like (To Qn 2)
B. Don't like (To Qn 5)
2. Will you add eggs in your steamboat soup?
A. Yes (To Qn 3)
B. No (To Qn 6)
3. If you find a cigaratte butt in ur steamboat food, what will you do?
A. Quarrel with the boss and request another new one. (To Qn 13)
B. Stop eating and just pay and go. (To Qn 10)
4. What is the main point ypu will consider for choosing a steamboat restaurant?
A. Famous ( To Qn 7)
B. Reasonable prices ( To Qn 8)
5. If the steamboat restaurant has a new product of steamboat, will you dare to try?
A. Yes ( To Qn 6)
B. No ( To Qn 8)
6. How many people do you like to have your steamboat meal with?
A. 2-3 soulmates ( To Qn 9)
B. A big group of friends ( To Qn 3)
7. If the steamboat restaurant is very crowded, will you wait for a seat or go to another place?
A. Wait ( To Qn 11)
B. Proceed to another one ( To Qn 12)
8. What kind of food you like to add?
A. Noodle ( To Qn 9)
B. Vermicilli 'Tang hoon' ( To Qn 7)
9. Will you drink the soup first or finish all the ingredients in the bowl then drink the soup?
A. Drink the soup first ( To Qn 10)
B. Eat the ingredients first ( To Qn 12)
10. If the boss tells you that you must add some SPECIAL and ODD i! ngredient in the soup to make it more delicious, will you dare to add?
A. Yes ( To Qn 17)
B. No ( To Qn 13)
11. Will you drink a cup of cooling water after you finish this steamy hot meal?
A. Yes ( To Qn 15)
B. No ( To Qn 14)
12. When you are having your steamboat, do you put in your meat first or put in later?
A. Put it once the steamboat start ( To Qn 15)
B. Later part then put ( To Qn 11)
13. Do you like to put all types of food at one go into the steamboat or have it put in one type by one type?
A. All ( To Qn 17)
B. One type at a time ( To Qn 16)
14. What drink will you like to go with your meal?
! ;A. Oolong Tea ( To Qn 16)
B. Plum juice ( Type A)
15. Do you like to have steamboat at home or outside?
A. Home ( To Qn 16)
B. Outside ( To Qn 14)
16. Will you mind if another customer is standing behind you, waiting for you while you are finishing your food?
A. Mind ( Type B)
B.. Don't mind ( Type C)
17. You are already very full with your meal but the boss offer to let you have another steamboat meal, will you eat it?
A. Yes (Type D)
B. No ( To Qn 16)
RESULTS....
TYPE A
Shy, a bit of an introvert. You are more stubborn and like to stay alone quietly at home. To you, talking to strangers is a hard thing so you have not much friends. But you will still have some soulmates. You need to treasure people who care and love you. You are more interested in your own matters, you will try your very best to achieve your target. But you can't do everything alone, and just depend on yourself, learn to open up and accept other opinions. Try to get along with different people.
TYPE B
You are a more active person, drawing a clear line between happiness and unhappiness. You are more quick-tempered. If you encounter things you like, you will do it without second thought. But once you encounter things that you hate, you will wish to get out of it as soon as possible. As you are a person of your own views, the friends you tend to have will be of the same pattern. But once good friends, you will understand them a lot and go all the way to help then. Friends are very dependent on you. As you are too emotional, you may make a storm out of a teacup wit! h your friends. You must learn to do things in order and not give up easily. You can try making friends with those you don't think you can get along with, don't stick with the same category. This will make you more popular and charming.
TYPE C
Gentle like a lamb. You have a high level of adaptance power, easy to get along with people. Very popular in social life but seems that no one will talk bad about you. You hate to have conflicts with people so you
always try to adapt to everyone. You treat every person differently. To look at the bright side, you adapt easily. But to look at the dark side, you lack of character, although you are one big nice guy but you lack of charm. On the surface, you have a lot of friends but once you have troubles, you lack of soulmates to help you around. You must try to express yourself more and be more decisive. In this way, you can understand yourself more.
TYPE D
You are stubborn, like to go in circles and don't get to the point. Once you decide on something, no one can change your mind. You are a good leader in a group so you win a lot of trust from your friends. But as you
are too persistant on your own thinking, you neglect other people's suggestions therefore you can easily make enemies. Although it is good to maintain your own character but it doesn't mean you totally ignore other people's thoughts and feelings. You will let people think you are hard to handle and you will lose friends gradually and may end up alone. You need to learn to accept other people's opinion. This will make your social circle bigger and you will understand yourself better.
A. Winter ( To Qn 2)
B. Summer (To Qn 5)
C. No matter what season (To Qn 1)
1. Do you like to have some sauce on your food?
A. Like (To Qn 2)
B. Don't like (To Qn 5)
2. Will you add eggs in your steamboat soup?
A. Yes (To Qn 3)
B. No (To Qn 6)
3. If you find a cigaratte butt in ur steamboat food, what will you do?
A. Quarrel with the boss and request another new one. (To Qn 13)
B. Stop eating and just pay and go. (To Qn 10)
4. What is the main point ypu will consider for choosing a steamboat restaurant?
A. Famous ( To Qn 7)
B. Reasonable prices ( To Qn 8)
5. If the steamboat restaurant has a new product of steamboat, will you dare to try?
A. Yes ( To Qn 6)
B. No ( To Qn 8)
6. How many people do you like to have your steamboat meal with?
A. 2-3 soulmates ( To Qn 9)
B. A big group of friends ( To Qn 3)
7. If the steamboat restaurant is very crowded, will you wait for a seat or go to another place?
A. Wait ( To Qn 11)
B. Proceed to another one ( To Qn 12)
8. What kind of food you like to add?
A. Noodle ( To Qn 9)
B. Vermicilli 'Tang hoon' ( To Qn 7)
9. Will you drink the soup first or finish all the ingredients in the bowl then drink the soup?
A. Drink the soup first ( To Qn 10)
B. Eat the ingredients first ( To Qn 12)
10. If the boss tells you that you must add some SPECIAL and ODD i! ngredient in the soup to make it more delicious, will you dare to add?
A. Yes ( To Qn 17)
B. No ( To Qn 13)
11. Will you drink a cup of cooling water after you finish this steamy hot meal?
A. Yes ( To Qn 15)
B. No ( To Qn 14)
12. When you are having your steamboat, do you put in your meat first or put in later?
A. Put it once the steamboat start ( To Qn 15)
B. Later part then put ( To Qn 11)
13. Do you like to put all types of food at one go into the steamboat or have it put in one type by one type?
A. All ( To Qn 17)
B. One type at a time ( To Qn 16)
14. What drink will you like to go with your meal?
! ;A. Oolong Tea ( To Qn 16)
B. Plum juice ( Type A)
15. Do you like to have steamboat at home or outside?
A. Home ( To Qn 16)
B. Outside ( To Qn 14)
16. Will you mind if another customer is standing behind you, waiting for you while you are finishing your food?
A. Mind ( Type B)
B.. Don't mind ( Type C)
17. You are already very full with your meal but the boss offer to let you have another steamboat meal, will you eat it?
A. Yes (Type D)
B. No ( To Qn 16)
RESULTS....
TYPE A
Shy, a bit of an introvert. You are more stubborn and like to stay alone quietly at home. To you, talking to strangers is a hard thing so you have not much friends. But you will still have some soulmates. You need to treasure people who care and love you. You are more interested in your own matters, you will try your very best to achieve your target. But you can't do everything alone, and just depend on yourself, learn to open up and accept other opinions. Try to get along with different people.
TYPE B
You are a more active person, drawing a clear line between happiness and unhappiness. You are more quick-tempered. If you encounter things you like, you will do it without second thought. But once you encounter things that you hate, you will wish to get out of it as soon as possible. As you are a person of your own views, the friends you tend to have will be of the same pattern. But once good friends, you will understand them a lot and go all the way to help then. Friends are very dependent on you. As you are too emotional, you may make a storm out of a teacup wit! h your friends. You must learn to do things in order and not give up easily. You can try making friends with those you don't think you can get along with, don't stick with the same category. This will make you more popular and charming.
TYPE C
Gentle like a lamb. You have a high level of adaptance power, easy to get along with people. Very popular in social life but seems that no one will talk bad about you. You hate to have conflicts with people so you
always try to adapt to everyone. You treat every person differently. To look at the bright side, you adapt easily. But to look at the dark side, you lack of character, although you are one big nice guy but you lack of charm. On the surface, you have a lot of friends but once you have troubles, you lack of soulmates to help you around. You must try to express yourself more and be more decisive. In this way, you can understand yourself more.
TYPE D
You are stubborn, like to go in circles and don't get to the point. Once you decide on something, no one can change your mind. You are a good leader in a group so you win a lot of trust from your friends. But as you
are too persistant on your own thinking, you neglect other people's suggestions therefore you can easily make enemies. Although it is good to maintain your own character but it doesn't mean you totally ignore other people's thoughts and feelings. You will let people think you are hard to handle and you will lose friends gradually and may end up alone. You need to learn to accept other people's opinion. This will make your social circle bigger and you will understand yourself better.
Cartoon character?
Everyone has a personality of a cartoon character. Have you ever asked yourself what cartoon character do you most resemble?
A group of investigators got together and analyzed the personalities of well known and modern cartoon characters. The information that was gathered was made into this test.
Answer all the questions (only 10) with what describes you best, add up all your Points (which are next to the answer that you choose) at the end and look for your results.
Do not cheat by looking at the end of the e-mail before you are done .
Then forward this to all your friends ( including the person who sent it to you ) and change the subject of this message to what character is you.
Answer all the questions (only 10) with what describes you best, add up all your Points (which are next to the answer that you choose) at the end and look for your results.
Do not cheat by looking at the end of the e-mail before you are done .
Then forward this to all your friends ( including the person who sent it to you ) and change the subject of this message to what character is you.
1. Which one of the following describes the perfect date?
a) Candlelight dinner (4 pts.)
b) Fun/Theme Park (2 pts.)
c) Painting in the park (5 pts)
d) Rock concert (1 pt.)
E) Going to the movies (3 pts.)
2. What is your favorite type of music?
a) Rock and Roll (2 pts.)
b) Alternative (1 pt.)
c) Soft Rock (4 pts.)
d) Country (5 pts.)
E) Pop (3 pts.)
3. What type of movies do you prefer?
a) Comedy (2 pts.)
b) Horror (1 pt.)
c) Musical (3 pts.)
d) Romance (4 pts.)
E) Documentary (5 pts.)
4. Which one of these occupations would you choose if you only could choose one of these?
a) Waiter (4 pts.)
b) Professional Sports Player (5 pts.)
c) Teacher (3 pts.)
d) Police (2 pts.)
E) Cashier (1 pt)
5 What do you do with your spare time?
a) Exercise (5 pts.)
b) Read (4 pts.)
c) Watch television (2 pts.)
d) Listen to music (1 pt.)
E) Sleep (3 pts.)
6. Which one of the following colors do you like best?
a) Yellow (1 pt.)
b) White (5 pts.)
c) Sky Blue (3 pts.)
d) Dark Blue (2 pts.)
E) Red (4 pts.)
7. What do you prefer to eat?
a) Snow (3 pts.)
b) Pizza (2 pts.)
c) Sushi (1 pt.)
d) Pasta (4 pts.)
E) Salad (5 pts.)
8. What is your favorite holiday ?
a) Halloween (1 pt.)
b) Christmas (3 pts.)
c) New Year (2 pts.)
d) Valentine's Day (4 pts.)
E) Thanksgiving (5 pts.)
9. If you could go to one of these places which one would it be?
a) Paris (4 pts)
b) Spain(5 pts)
c) Las Vegas(1 pt)
d) Hawaii(4 pts)
E) Hollywood (3 pts)
10. With which of the following would you prefer to spend time with?
a) Someone Smart (5 pts.)
b) Someone attractive (2 pts.)
c) Someone who likes to Party (1 pt.)
d) Someone who always has fun (3 pts.)
E) Someone very sentimental (4 pts.)
(10-16 points) You are Garfield:
You are very comfortable, easy going, and you definitely know how to have fun but sometimes you take it to an extreme. You always know what you are doing and you are always in control of your life. Others may not see things as you do, but that doesn't mean that you always have to do what is right. Try to remember, your happy spirit may hurt you or others.
(17-23 points) You are Snoopy:
You are fun; you are very cool and popular. You always know what's in and you ' re never out of style, y you are good at knowing how to satisfy everyone else. You have probably disappeared for a few days more than once but you always come home with the family values that you learned Being married and having children are important to you, but only after you have had your share of fun times
(24-28 points) You are Elmo:
You have lots of friends and you are also popular, always willing to give advice and help out a person in need. You are very optimistic and you always see the bright side of things. Some good advice: try not to be too much of a dreamer. Dreaming too big could cause many conflicts in your life.
(29-35 points) You are Sponge Bob Square Pants:
You are the classic person that everyone loves. You are the best friend that anyone could ever have and never wants to lose. You never cause harm to anyone and they would never not understand your feelings. Life is a journey, it' s funny and calm for the most part. Stay away from traitors and jealous people and you will be stress free.
(36-43 points) You are Charlie Brown:
You are tender, you fall in love quickly but you are also very serious about all relationships. You are a family person. You call your Mom every Sunday. You have many friends and may occasionally forget a few Birthdays. Don't let your passion confuse you with reality.
(44-50 points ) You are Dexter:
You are smart and definitely a thinker... Every situation is fronted with a plan. You have a brilliant mind. You demonstrate very strong family principles. You maintain a stable routine but never ignore a bad situation when it comes. Try to do less over thinking every once in a while to spice things up a bit with spontaneity!
Now don't spoil it! Have some Fun!! Change the subject of the email to what you are and send it on.
1st morning in UCO
This morning I woke up with a weird feeling because I'm not at home anymore. I was awake ina house where I just moved inwithout more of my belongings because they are still in the storage due to the stupid and evil bed bugs from the previous apartment, the Summit Apartment. I do not have a bed with only a couple outfits that I brought back from Malaysia. Luckily, my roommate let me spent the night with him.
It was a long journey back to Oklahoma but I was desperately looking forward to end all this studying and start a new life again. therefore, I'm looking forward for my studies in Australia and start a new life even though I know starting a new life in a new environment is very tough but I wanted to have a new life because I felt so tired suddenly. I just come back from a long vacation and I already feel tired. This is going to be a long and horrible semester.
Feeling sorry to my parents are back again, because I understand how much time and money they have spent on me, a not guaranteed to be successful. I really want to stay as good as a student and a daughter because I don't want to embarrass and disappoint them like how I have dreamed.
It was a long journey back to Oklahoma but I was desperately looking forward to end all this studying and start a new life again. therefore, I'm looking forward for my studies in Australia and start a new life even though I know starting a new life in a new environment is very tough but I wanted to have a new life because I felt so tired suddenly. I just come back from a long vacation and I already feel tired. This is going to be a long and horrible semester.
Feeling sorry to my parents are back again, because I understand how much time and money they have spent on me, a not guaranteed to be successful. I really want to stay as good as a student and a daughter because I don't want to embarrass and disappoint them like how I have dreamed.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Missing you
Now I'm at Dallas Airport writing my feelings towards my family. This feelings towards my family have left me a long time ago, but it is back to pay me a visit.
This feeling makes me empty, pain, and tears running down my cheeks without my control.
I don't like this feeling, therefore I always think about my family. Now it is too late because it is back with me and it will take me a while to get away from this feeling. The more I cry the more empty I feel, I need to stop crying but I can't stop. My tears are trying to fill in my emptiness, but there is a huge hole leaking tremendously.
People started to look at me weirdly but I don;t care now because I'm facing myself and not hide away from myself.
加油!!!!!!!!
This feeling makes me empty, pain, and tears running down my cheeks without my control.
I don't like this feeling, therefore I always think about my family. Now it is too late because it is back with me and it will take me a while to get away from this feeling. The more I cry the more empty I feel, I need to stop crying but I can't stop. My tears are trying to fill in my emptiness, but there is a huge hole leaking tremendously.
People started to look at me weirdly but I don;t care now because I'm facing myself and not hide away from myself.
加油!!!!!!!!
Second trip to USA
My second trip to USA, leaving my family and friends behind me again without a hug or a kiss with only and far wave of goodbye.
Before this summer holiday, I was so excited of going home to meet my family and friends who I always missed and loved. But, once I reached the so called home, all the excitement flew away. How weird?
My whole summer stay at home was not pleasant at all, even though my parents took me on a vacation to Hong Kong and China, I can't help from getting angry and upset my family. I'm so sorry~~
Now, I'm leaving everyone I love behind me and move on towards my future. I want all of them to be involve in this journey, but unfortunately, our distance are too far apart.
I did not let out a drop of tear in this journey, but my love towards my friends and family grow stronger the further I moved on. I'm a very weird person, I need to stay away from people I love and those who love me to feel the love.
Before this summer holiday, I was so excited of going home to meet my family and friends who I always missed and loved. But, once I reached the so called home, all the excitement flew away. How weird?
My whole summer stay at home was not pleasant at all, even though my parents took me on a vacation to Hong Kong and China, I can't help from getting angry and upset my family. I'm so sorry~~
Now, I'm leaving everyone I love behind me and move on towards my future. I want all of them to be involve in this journey, but unfortunately, our distance are too far apart.
I did not let out a drop of tear in this journey, but my love towards my friends and family grow stronger the further I moved on. I'm a very weird person, I need to stay away from people I love and those who love me to feel the love.
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